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Learning to Love Again

Hi! This is Angel Rose! Hope you enjoy this story. It is in Darien's point
of view. DISCLAIMER:I don't own any of the Sailor Moon characters.
"Every time you're nice to me and listen to me because you really care, my
heart grown wings, very feeble wings, but wings!" From Chicen Soup For The
Teenage Soul

I remember like it was yesterday. I remember the truck rushing upon us and
the force of the impact. I remember my parents screams as their bodies flew
thru the broken glass. I remember the pain as my small skull slammed into
the front seat and as everything went blank. I do not remember anything
before that. They diagnosed me with amnesia. Also that accident left me
crippled. I can not walk. Now I live in the orphanage. I do not even know
my own name but everybody seems to call me Darien, Darien that's a strange
name. Tears slowly fall down my face as I feel the aloneness, but then a
see Allie. She was also orphaned in a terrible car crash. Her beautiful red
hair and her big gray eyes has gotten her many admireres, including me.

"Allie, could you come here for a moment." I call to her because I am not
able to get out of my bed.

"What Darien?" she asked as she walked towards my bed.

"Here." I said giving her a rose shyly.

"I don't want anything to do with crippled litle freaks like you." she said
coldly as she dropped the rose and stepped on it crushing the delicate red
petals.

After that inciddent I was cold to everyone. I desperately created a mask
to hide behind, so afraid of being hurt, so afraid of my weaknesses being
exposed. Allie hurt me too much. I never let anyone be nice me. I thought
they were lying, all the wamted to do was hurt me. Today was another
example my nurse was trying to teach me to walk so I threw a vase at her
and called her a wicked witch. Just then a girl with a very strange hair do
walked in. It was two buns on top of her head. Her hair was blonde and she
had big blue eyes.

"What do want?" I asked her coldly

"I came to visit you, to cheer you up!" she said cheerfully.

"My name is Serena and I'm three years old!, What's your name?" she said.

"Darien" I replied.

"Why are you in the orphanage." Serena asked.

"My parents died in a severe car crash. They said I was lucky that I
survived but I'm not so sure about that." I replied cooly.

"Unlike you care." I said my voice getting icier

"I do care." Serena said taking my hand but I quickly jerked it away.

"And today I'm going to be a big sister." Serena continued.

"Eat a cracker and feel special." I replied coldly.

Serena seemed some what hurt by this. I took great pleasure in this. I
wanted her to feel the same hurting that I did.

"Here." she said handing me a rose. I wasn't going to take it but then I
remembered the pain tht Allie gave to me. I had some pity and placed the
rose on my bed table because my vase broke when I tried to hit the nurse.

"See your not as wretched a boy as all the nurses tell me." Serena said.

"Wanna go look out the window, it's a beautiful day!" she asked.

"I.. um.. can't walk." I said quitely a tear rolling down my cheek waiting
for her to make some kind of joke like so many had. But to my surprise she
didn't.

"I could teach you." she softly.

"It's no use, I'm a failor." I said.

"C'mon try." Serena replied.

"Fine." I agreed reluctantly.

Serena put my arm around her shoulder. Her body slouched slightly from the
unaccustomed weight. I wasn't surprise I was seven and she was only three.

"Oh my, you're so skinny!" Serena said looking at my lanky body. I blushed
slighty.

"Are you going to teach me or not?!" I shouted at her.

"Okay, lean on me and walk slowly.' she replied.

I took one step and fell.

"Try again." Serena said.

I tried again and tumbled helplessly to the ground.

"Told you it was useles." I shouted at her tears starting to fill in my
eyes.

"Just leave me alone!" I yelled at her as I pushed her away.

She fell to the ground. Tears streaming out of her blue eyes.

"They were right you are I wretched, cruel boy!" Serena shouted at me as
she ran out the door.

I took great satisfaction in this. Knowing that she cried too. Trying to
cover up my own insecurities and aloness. Later that night I laid awake in
the orphanage. The same image repeating in my head. Serena fallng and
crying. I felt a wave of guilt wash over me. I feeling I have never felt. I
slowly rose from the bed and tried to walk. I took I few steps and fell. I
tried again. I kept trying the whole night. I was not going to be a failure
any longer.

I practiced every night for two weeks trying to learn to walk. I never
tried when people were awake. I was afraid they would laugh and jeer at me
and call me dumb. Also I ate better too. Soon I started to get muscles.
Also I was much more pleasant to be around. I was not as mean to the nures
or as cold to the other kids. Slowly but surely my mask was being removed.
Serena came back three weeks later. She stood in my doorway, still a hurt
look in her beautiful azul eyes.

"What did you want?" Serena asked cooly.

"I have something to show you." I replied.

I slowly got up and walked towards her not tripping her stumbling once.

"Oh Darien!" she exclaimed happily.

"I'm sorry." I said to her.

"You're forgiven." she replied.

"Look your muscular!" Serena said looking at my arms and legs.

Allie also noticed this.

"Hi!" she said batting her eyelashes.

I was going to say something cruel to her but I thought better of it. I no
longer wanted people to feel my pain. It still hurt and it probally always
will hurt but I wasn't going to take it out on people any longer. I just
looked at Allie and turned around. I gave Serena a big hug. Since I was so
much taller than her my body towered over her. She buried her head into my
chest. I felt great gratitude and respect towards this girl. She only did
not teach me and give me the courage to walk, she taught me how to love.
                                 ~The End~