Hi minna!
This is the first of hopefuly many fanfics I'll be posting here. It takes 
place during the Usagi and Mamoru break up. Well on with the story!

Just for a Time (Rating PG)
By Angelstar1014
E-Mail: Angelstar1014@hotmail.com

Oh how you used to walk
With that insouciant smile
I liked the way you talk
And your style
Pleased me for a while.

You were my early love
New as a day breaking in Spring
You were the image of
Everything
That caused me to sing

I don?t like reminiscing
Nostalgia is not my forte
I don?t spill tears
On yesterday?s years
But honesty makes me say
You were a precious pearl
How I loved to watch you shine,
You were the perfect girl
And you were mine.
For a time
For a time
Just for a time.
		-Maya Angelou

Damn!
What on earth possessed me to take this poetry class?
?Because Usako convinced you to, because she insisted that since you wrote 
such beautiful poetry, you should take this class to help you express 
yourself better.?
Thank you sub-conscious.
I know something?s wrong with me when I start talking to myself.
Those damn dreams ruined my life and now I?m stuck in a poetry class, 
discussing love poems no less.
Ever get that feeling that life?s against you?
I love Usako so much, if I had it my way, I?d never let her go.
But the dreams say I?ll hurt her, that being with me will kill her.
I couldn?t bear it if that happened to her.
So I broke up with her, she?s persistent though, always asking me why I 
broke up with her.
Why?
Because a dream told me to.
I can?t believe I listened to it. Maybe embarrassment kept me from telling 
her the truth.
Now thanks to that poem we discussed today, I can?t keep my mind off of her.
She walks into the arcade with Rini, who wastes no time lunging at me, 
screaming.
?Mamo-chan!?
Usako walks up to me as well, I brace myself for the usual routine of her 
begging.
Nothing could have prepared me for what happened next.
?Hello Mamoru-kun.? She says calmly.
Mamoru-kun?
What? No begging? NO Mamo-chan?
That hurt more than I thought it would.
She seems different.
Not as cold as she used to be but certainly not as warm as she was.
She was talking to me like she would someone she knew.
An acquaintance, a friend, but not a close friend, and most certainly not an 
ex-boyfriend she still loved.
?Rini,? She says kindly. ?Here?s some money. When you?re done, you can play 
some games.?
?Okay Usa-baka.? Rini says lovingly, like a pet name.
Usako laughs and turns to the Sailor V game.
?She doesn?t remember you.? Rini says, finally, when Usako?s out of hearing 
distance.
?What??
?Last night she was crying. You must have rejected her again. . .?
[ Usagi crying on her bed. Rini comes up to her.
?Usagi? Are you all right??
?I-I? She sobs ?I can?t take it anymore!?
?Can?t take what??
?Mamo-chan hates me! He wants me to stay away form him, but I can?t! I?d do 
anything to make him happy, but I can?t stay away from him!?
Usagi wipes her eyes and looks at her locket.
?Maybe?? She stares at it, a serious look on her face.
?Usagi, what are you doing?? Rini asked.
?Please understand, Rini.? She said. ?I love him, the only way I can make 
him happy is not to remember.?
?Not to remember??
Usagi nods and the crystal starts to glow bright.]
??so she remembers being engaged in her former life, but they didn?t love 
each other, so when she got her memories back, it was no big deal. She knows 
you?re Tuxedo Kamen, but you?re only allies, and you were never together. ?  
Rini gets off of my lap. ?You know, Usa-baka?s not my favorite person, but 
she did deserve an explanation for why you broke up with her.?
Usako?s flirting with a boy at the crane game, he?s trying to get a prize 
for her.
Why that no good?
?Usagi?s pretty popular with the guys, you know.? Rini says. ?What ever 
reason you had to dump her I hope it was worth it.?
Worth it?
Like anything could possibly compare to me perfect odango-atma?
?Her safety, her life? my mind tells me.
Wonderful, I?m talking to myself again.
Mamoru, you need some sleep.
Just one good night?s sleep?.
I walk back to my apartment, deep in thought.
Usako, I never wanted to be one second without you, since I saw you in our 
past lives?
Since you gave me that rose when I just lost my parents?
Since you hit me on the head with a test paper?both times.
?It?s for her own safety. You should be happy, now, she?ll never die. She?s 
going to stay away from you, just like you wanted her to.?
I never wanted you to forget me, forget us!
?Now your being greedy .you want her to remember everything you had and stay 
away from you without an explanation. Would you have done that if Usako did 
that to you??
I wouldn?t have let her leave my sight until I got an explanation, I would 
have carried her over my shoulder if I had to, to get the truth.
?So basically, you would have done anything possible to get the truth.?
I guess?
?You?d feel that you deserved it.?
Yes?
?And you would have done anything to make her happy right??
Go on?
?So how is that any different from what Usako wanted??
Well it?s not?
?So what are you complaining about?! You can?t have everything you want!?
But all I want is Usako?
?Does her safety mean anything to you??
Her safety means EVERYTHING to me!
?How about her happiness??
Happiness too.
?So why aren?t you happy? She?s both now.?
I enter my apartment, remembering that I had a poem to read for tomorrow.
I go to my desk and see?our locket?
It?s the symbol of our love?
I can feel a tear fall from my face.
The locket opens, unwanted.
The melody that could normally brighten my darkest mood, filled the room.
I didn?t want to hear it. Not now, it?s melody was too light, too happy, too 
much like Usako.
I close the locket and turn to the book a note is being used as a bookmark.
I read the poem. It?s called Refusal.

Beloved,
In what other lives of lands
Have I known your lips
Your hand.
Your laughter brave
Irreverent,
Those sweet exesses that
I do adore.
What surety is there
That we will meet again,
On other worlds some
Future time undated.
I defy my body?s haste.
Without the Promise
Of one more sweet encounter
I will not deign to die

Nice poem.
Makes me feel like even more of a rat than before.
Then I look at the note.

Mamo-chan,
I couldn?t think of any other way to keep away form you like you wanted. I 
hope this makes you happy. Please remember my precious Mamo-chan that I?ll 
always love you, and that I forgive you for not telling me why we broke up.
Always and forever,
Your little rabbit

Oh Usako?
?She forgives you but can you forgive yourself??
Would you shut up and leave me alone?
?Baka! You are alone!?
A knock at the door interrupts my thoughts.
Great, I think I?m really not in the mood for company right now.
I walk up to the door and who should I see but my beautiful Usako.
?Konichiwa Mamoru-kun! There?s going to be a scout meeting tomorrow, and I 
was wondering if. . . you. . . wanted. . . to. . .?
Her voice trails off as I embrace her.
I couldn?t help it. That poem was too true.
We found each other after we were reborn.
Would be so lucky a second time?
?M-Mamoru? Wha??? She asks confused.
My, she?s adorable when she does that.
?Remember you?re trying to keep her safe.?
I?ll warn her so she?ll keep her guard up.
?She?ll die on your wedding day.?
We won?t get married.
?She?ll be??
Oh go to hell.
As I tell off that voice another come in louder than before.
?What are you doing you baka!? She?s not yours to hug anymore!?
No, I correct, Not mine to hug YET.
?I-I?m sorry, Usagi, will you please come in, I need to talk to you.?
?Well??
?Please Usagi-chan. It?s important.?
She looks reluctant, but she eventually nods her head.
?Please make yourself comfortable.? I say as I go into the kitchen to make 
her a snack.
I do know one thing for sure: If Usako?s awake, she?s hungry.
?I?ve never been in here before.? She says as she looks around.
Oh yes you have Usako.
In fact you?d be surprised as to how much time you?ve spent in here.
?What?s this?? She?s holding up the poetry book.
Thank goodness I have her note.
?It?s for one of my classes.?
?Oh, that?s so sad.? Usako says as she reads the poem. ?It really speaks to 
you.?
You have no idea Usako.
?It does, doesn?t it??
I set a plate of her favorite cookies down on the table and sit down. I 
motion for her to sit down as well. She looked at the tray.
?Wow!? She says taking a handful of cookies. ?These are my favorite!?
?You don?t say.?
?So Mamoru-kun, what did you want to talk to me about??
?Um, well?? I stutter
Good grief man! Get a hold of yourself!
?Usagi, we-we?ve known each other for some time??
?About a year.?
?And we?ve gotten pretty close, haven?t we??
?Mamoru-kun, what are you trying to say??
?Usagi-chan, I care for you.?
?And I care for you too.?
?No.? I say holding her shoulders ?I want us to be more than friends. 
Usako??
?Baka! How?s she going to respond to that? You total idiot!?
?Mamoru-san,?
Uh-oh.
That doesn?t sound good.
?I think I?d better go??
?No, Usako, please, tell me, did you ever think of us as more than friend, 
allies??
?I-I don?t know Mamoru. I never thought??
?Don?t think Usako, feel. How do you feel about me??
?How do you feel about me??
?I love you Usako. I love you.?
?Y-you-you l-love me??
?With all my heart and soul.?
?M-Mamoru?? She started to say when the locket opened.
Usako?s face contracts in pain, and she holds her head as if she has a 
headache. The music grows louder. I?m still holding on to her shoulders.
I can?t stand it. I have to hug her at least!
I?d kiss her, but she has a headache.
?M-Mamo,? She says. ?Mamo-chan??
?I?m here Usako, I?m here.?
?Why did you break up with me??
Suddenly the crystal started to glow. It incases both of us.
Before I knew what was happening I was plunged, for lack of a better word, 
into Usako?s existence, her very being. I saw everything about her.
The pain, the happiness, and I saw her crying over me.
My heart broke.
I laughed when she had not-so-fond memories of me teasing her.
And I longed to feel her sweet lips on mine.
I was sure that she could see into my soul too. Everything I tried so hard 
to hide, to conceal, was an open book for Usako.
I don?t care
I?m tired of keeping that iron wall around myself, keeping people out. 
That?s how I almost lost her in the first place. Our souls were one for only 
a moment, but that was enough.
I knew she knew the truth.
?Oh Mamo-chan.? Usako says looking up at me with tearful, sorrowful eyes. 
?You should have just told me and saved yourself a lot of grief.?
	?I know Usako, I?m a fool. Do you forgive me??
?Of course I forgive you, you baka! What kind of question is that?? Usako 
says pulling me close. ?Now as for your dreams, pay no attention to them. 
Dreams are all they are, I?m real, and I might just decide to get a new guy 
if you try something like that again.?
Even though I knew she was teasing me, I shuddered at the thought.
?I won?t I promise.?
I smile at her and she kisses me, I respond with equal passion.
My nightmares don?t hold any power over me anymore, I find it ridiculous 
that they ever did.
Usako, is my love, my life and without her, I am nothing.
Her light and love are all I need, and the nightmares never came to me 
again.

Well what do you think? Personaly I'm not a big Cartoon Darien/Mamoru fan. 
The comic book version is Soo much more romantic. They fall in love BEFORE 
they get their memory back, and he's never broken up with her. Well, Ja ne!


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