A Dying Wish For Usako By Astarte Why? Why did you leave me? What have I done wrong? I saw the future; I saw what was mean to be. Now, now I?m alone; always so alone. Sure I seemed bright and cheerful and bubbly all the time but I am quite a goof actress. No, I was alone most of the time. When I became Sailor Moon, there was no one for me to talk to. I know I had Luna, but it just wasn?t the same. What I really wanted was another soul to talk to. Then you appeared. You were my light at the end of a dark tunnel. Now, as I think back over the years, it seemed to me to be a premonition of what would come. You were always there to protect me but now, when I need you most, you are nowhere to be found. This is my final resting place. never be born. What I saw was merely an illusion. Forgive me, my child, I was not strong enough to prevent all this from happening. Everything is going dark. The light I once saw is gone. My hope, my innoncese left me a long time ago. Why, oh why, did you leave me? I no longer feel the physical pain I felt before. I have no feeling left inside me. The Crystal could heal me but what do I have to live for? My spirit is starting to leave. My arms and legs feel numb. Nothing matters to me now. The moon, the light and strength that powers me, is gone. My sun has set. Forgive me, everyone, I couldn?t stop the evil from taking over. It was too strong for me. I tried using the Crystal to save everyone but it overpowered the Crystal and sent me flying. I no longer know where I am. But wait, what voice do I hear? Is it you, my Mamo-chan, or is my imagination playing tricks on me? No, it?s not you; you deserted me a long time ago. My love wasn?t strong enough to help you. ` * * * * * * I see her lying there. Her uniform is in tatters and there is blood everywhere. She?s not moving. Oh, god, please don?t let her be dead! She tried using the Crystal to save us all but it didn?t work. Oh, god, Usako, I?m so sorry I left you. I never meant for this to happen. It wasn?t supposed to be this way. I love you so much. You?re everything to me. (Darien gets closer) The Crystal is in your hand. Why don?t you use its healing energies to heal yourself? The world will die without you. Please, don?t leave me. We need you. I need you. Oh, god, please don?t die. Fight, Usako, Fight. (Darien takes her hand in his after dropping to his knees. A tear slides down his cheek as he gazes upon his lost love.) "Please, come back to me, Usako. I love you," Darien cries out. * * * * * * That Voice. I hear it again. It is my Mamo-chan. He?s come for me. I feel him pick up my hand and just hold it. Then I hear him speak. That voice, I never though I?d hear again. What was that he said? Did he say he loves me? Oh, god, he did! The Crystal, I need the Crystal! It?s in my other hand. But am I strong enough to still use it? I have to at least try. I send the Crystal a message. I order it to start healing me. Bit by bit, I can feel my body returning. * * * * * * She?s coming back to me. She must have heard my voice. The Crystal?s glowing at her command. What will she say when she awakens? Oh, Usako, I?m so glad you?ve come back to me. I couldn?t bear to live without you. My life was empty and cold, but then you came along and you healed me with your love. * * * * * * (The Crystal) These two, will they ever be fully together? She finally called upon my power. I wonder what took her so long? These humans, I will never fully understand them. But this child?s mother, they are so much alike they don?t even realize it. Never could they be filled with hate. Neither is capable of not loving. They are both filled with love and caring. My mistress, the Neo-Queen will live. * * * * * * The Crystal is making me stronger. The darkness is leaving me! I can see the light! But what will happen when I awake? Will he go on ignoring me? Oh, god, if he does, then all will be for naught. But I have to keep trying. Please, Mamo-chan, please don?t leave me. You?ve stopped talking. You haven?t left me, have you? Oh no, don?t you dare leave me. I won?t let you. I?m doing all of this for you, my love. Crystal, slow down. Slow down the healing process, he?s not here anymore. He?s left me again, I know it. I was a fool to believe that he?d stay with me, a complete fool. * * * * * * Hey, what?s going on? The Crystal?s stopped glowing. Oh no, she must have given up. Don?t you dare give up, Usako, I won?t let you. I won?t let you leave me. I?m not going through all that again. If you die, then I?ll find a way to join you; no matter where you?re at. You mean everything to me. "Come on, Usako, don?t give up. Please, don?t you dare give up. I won?t let you. My life was empty before you came. You promised you?d never leave me. Don?t you go back on your word. I love you, you hear me, and if you die, then I?ll die with you. I?m not going to give up on you," Darien vowed. (He held Serena?s hand ever tighter.) * * * * * * He?s still here; I can hear his voice. Oh, god, I don?t know if I have the strength to continue. Serenity does. Do I have enough power to change into Serenity? It?s my only hope. I have to. Oh, moon, please, please lend me your strength. It is I, your chosen one, who begs you. (The moon sends down a beam of white light and encases Serena in the soft light. Suddenly a light flashes and Serenity is lying there, her dress tattered and torn.) * * * * * * She?s called upon the moon for help. That must mean that she?s run out of her own power. If only I could lend her some of mine. (Darien has let go of her hand but is now holding her in his arms. Tears are rolling down his face as he looks down at her pale face.) I won?t let you leave me. (Darien is concentrating so hard on her face that the Earth symbol has appeared on his forehead.) I love you, Usako, and I?ll never let you leave me. (A beam has come from Darien?s symbol and has latched onto Serena?s moon symbol.) See, Usako, I?m giving you my strength; I?ll help you get through this. (Serena?s body is jerking with all the energy she?s receiving.) * * * * * * Darien, thank-you for helping me. I?ve got to use this energy but I think it?s too much. I can?t unite it within the Crystal. It?s too much! (Serena?s body is jerking and her face is twisted in pain. Darien sees this and stops giving her energy.) He?s stopped but it?s still too much. Oh, god, I have to get rid of it. When I let it go, there?s going to be a blast. Darien?s going to get hurt. Oh, god, I can?t do it. I can?t release it! * * * * * * Oh, no, what have I done? She can?t control it! She?s got to release the energy but she won?t because she knows I?m still here and that I?ll get hurt. There?s no way she?ll release when I?m still here but she has to or she?ll die. How can I let her know that it?s okay if she releases it? Wait, the energy! She?ll know if I?ve built a shield around myself because she?ll be able to feel it. (Darien closes his eyes and uses his energy to build a shield around himself. Finally the shield was fully formed around him.) Now, Usako, let go of that energy, please let it go. Please, for your sake and mine and Renie?s. You have you let it go. * * * * * * Oh, thank-you, Mamo-chan. I?ve sensed you build that energy shield. I can release this energy and I?ll know that you?ll be safe. (Serena concentrates on expelling the energy.) Oh, Crystal, help me release all this energy. I call upon you for help. (The Crystal floats above Serena and gathers the energy into itself. Then, in one mighty blast, the energy was released. Serena?s body has stopped jerking and Darien is safe. The Crystal floats back into Serena?s hand.) I?m free, finally free. * * * * * * She?s released all that energy. Thank God!! Now, Usako, open your eyes and come back to me. (Darien started shaking her shoulders but he couldn?t tell if it was working or not. Suddenly Serena let out a moan.) She?s coming back! Come on, wake up, Usako, wake up! You?ve made it this far, let?s go the rest of the way * * * * * * I?ve got to wake up! (Serena struggled to open her eyes and when she finally succeeded, she saw the joyful face of her beloved Mamo-chan. Tears were coming down his face.) I?ve come back to you, Mamo-chan, just please don?t ever let me go. * * * * * * You?ve come back to me,. I knew you would. I see your beautiful blue eyes once more and I know that once I hold you, I?ll never let you go. "I love you, Usako, and I?m never going to let you go," Darien promised and then he kissed her. * * * * * * He loves me! He said so and he also said that he?ll never let me go! (Serena had tears coursing down his cheeks as Darien kissed her. The two lovers now knew just how much they loved each other and each vowed to never let the other go.) THE END