Hi minna! Yes, another song fic. This song made me 
cry the first ten or so times I heard it and I 
knew then I *had* to write a fic with it ^_^
I want to give a million and three thanks to my
editor Meara - **HUGS** luva girl, your the greatest!
And HUGE thanks to everyone who emails me about
my stories, you all have NO idea how much your
comments mean me to *sniff* **HUGS**
My friend Mercury Knight wrote a fic called
Demons of the Past - let me be the first to say
that that story is great! and you should go read
it.. after you read mine of course ^_~
I want to give a shout out to all my royal
court (^_~) and my twin Serenity Raye and my
wonderful friend Serena - girl you better get
that new story edited soon ^^ Love you all!
BTW, go visit mine and Sere's web page, Moon
Bunny's Closet!
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/9333
Insert usual disclaimers that no one reads anyways
here - along with some disclamiers to the song
"Standing on the Edge of the Earth" by Blessid
Unions of Souls, I don't own it, but I have the
cd and I highly recommed it ^_^
Luva!
Bethany ^_^

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Believing in Forever
By: Bethany
Rated: PG?...
Edited by: Meara *hugs*
Send all comments, suggestions,
Tiggers and cheese cubes to me
at Bethany212@aol.com
And send all cows to my twin ^_^
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	"Mamo-chan! Don't you da---ahhhh!!" 

	The sound of a woman's voice echoed through 
the warm summer night, followed shortly by giant 
splash and various other words. 

	Coming back up to the surface, Chiba Usagi 
splashed around for a minute while screaming at 
her husband.

	On the shore, a tall, good-looking man of 
about twenty-eight stood, laughing at the picture 
his wife made.

	"Come on Usako, you said you were hot!" He 
laughed again as her face seemed to turn a couple 
of shades of darker red. Goodness, but he hadn't 
made her mad in so long he almost forgot how 
adorable she was when seeing stars.

	Slowly he bent down at the side of the 
dock and put the tips of his fingers in the 
water. Faking a shiver, he chuckled lightly, 
"That's kind of cold, Usako."

	Mistake one: he misjudged her.

	Suddenly two hands came up, grabbed him 
by the arm and pulled him under with her. 
Gasping for breath, his hands came around the 
woman holding on to his arms and pulled her 
as close to him as he could. In an instant, 
his mouth was on hers. "Oh Usako..." he moaned, 
pulling her closer still, the water gently 
laping around them. 

	The moon shone brightly on the two figures 
in the water, stars reflecting off the lake's 
surface; making it seem as if the whole world 
was made of nothing but shining stars. To two 
young people in the lake that night - that's 
all it was.

	After some time, the two came back up to 
the shore, still clinging tightly to one another. 
Both collapsed onto the lake's edge and wrapped 
their arms around the other. 

	"Hmmmm.. Mamo-chan. It's been so long 
since it's just been us." At home tonight, 
their three year old child was being handled 
by Minako and Rei.  

	"Hai," Mamoru answered, eyes still 
closed. Suddenly his body tensed slightly as 
a chill passed over him. "Usako?"

	"Hmmm?"

	"Promise you'll never leave me... say 
we'll be together forever," he pleaded in a 
rare moment of emotional weakness.

	She giggled lightly and kissed his 
neck. "Of course we'll be together, for 
always. It would take moving heaven and Earth 
to take me away from you.  We'll have more 
children, rule Crystal Tokyo one day and live 
happily by each other until all eternity has 
ended."

	He sighed and pulled her closer. "That 
sounds perfect... but Usako, nothing is perfect."

	"Our love is, baby.  Our love is perfect," 
she assured him, placing her head on his chest 
and looking up at the moon.

	"If you die... I'd kill myself. I swear 
I would." 

	Suddenly Usagi pulled up and propped her 
head on her hand.  "Mamo-chan, doushite no? Why 
do you keep talking like this?"

	His blue eyes focused on hers, intent on 
remembering this night forever. "I don't know. 
I get this uneasy feeling sometimes, like 
you?re not going to be around much longer. I 
rush home to check on you... it's like everytime 
I see you it will be the last."

	She gave him a soft smile. "Hey, Mamo-chan?"

	"Hai?" he whispered back, caught in her 
spell.

	Slowly she leaned over and kissed his jaw 
directly under his ear. "I'm pregnant," she said 
slowly, smiling as he did.

	"Really?!" his voice mimicked that of a 
five year old getting a new toy. "Your...? How 
far? Are you okay? Have you seen a doctor?"

	She laughed joyusly. "Yes, two months, yes 
again and yes once more."

	Mamoru rolled over and hugged her tightly. 
"This is great, oh Kami-sama thank you. I love 
you so much." He leaned forward to kiss her when 
something occured to him. "Oh no! You?re wet, I.. 
I threw you-We have to get you home and changed," 
he announced, jumping up and then gently helping 
her up. Wrapping his arms around her form, making 
sure to place one hand on her still flat stomach, 
he lead them to their car.

~*~ 5 months later ~*~

	Usagi looked up and gave a short cry. 
"Please.. make this stop!" she sobbed. Her 
right hand rested on her swollen stomach and 
her left was supporting her weight on the 
counter. Another rush of pain surged though 
her body and one knee hit the floor. Frantic 
eyes searched the house for Chibi-Usa - but 
the toddler was no where to be seen.

	After taking a gasp for air, Usagi 
struggled to find her voice.  "Chibi-Usa!! 
Come here!" Her voice was followed by gagging 
and blood coming out of her mouth to stain her 
hand.

	"In minute Mama!" the toddler responded 
from somewhere towards the bedroom.

	Usagi's mind screamed no, to come now; 
but her throat could not find the words. As 
gently as she could she tried to lower herself 
to the floor.

	A few minutes later, a bubbly toddler 
came running in the kitchen, looking for her 
mother. "Mama?" she said quietly, soft foot 
steps padding across the kitchen. "Mama? 
Where are you?" she gave a short gasp when 
she found her unconcience on the floor. She 
placed a chubby hand on her mother's forearm 
and shook gently. "Mama? Wake up, Mama...do 
you need a doctor?" 

	Upon recieving no answer, she climbed 
up on a stool and reached for the cordless 
phone that lay on the counter. After finally 
achieving the small task, her young mind 
struggled to remember what Aunt Ami had been 
teaching her about what to do in an emergency. 
Small, round tears blurred her vision when she 
couldn't remember. "Papa.." she cried pitifully. 
Her fingers turned the phone on and hit auto 
one, "Please, I need Papa.." she cried.

~*~*~*

	Mamoru jumped slightly when his cell 
phone started ringing. Reaching down, he 
looked on the screen and seen his home phone 
number. After flipping the bottom open, he 
pulled it to his ear. "Usako?" 

	Silence registered on the other end. 
"Usako?" he repeated.

	"Papa?" a small voice finally responded, 
tears in her voice.  Immediately Mamoru pulled 
his car over to the side of the road.

	"Chibi-Usa? Sweetie, where's Mama?" he 
asked, slightly on edge and already pulling 
out to head back towards his house.

	"Mama?s asleep.  She... she... she won?t 
wake up.  Mama needs a doctor," the toddler 
informed him, tears clearly in her voice. 

	Mamoru inhaled sharply. "Chibi-Usa, 
Papa's coming home, ne? You go stay with Mama." 
After hearing her click the phone off, his foot
slammed down on the gas petal while dialing the 
parametics.
	
~*~

	His feet wasn't going fast enough for him, 
and it seemed to take an eternity to get to the 
kitchen. "Usako?! Chibi-Usa?!"

	"PAPA!" the child screamed, running around 
the counter and hugging her father's leg. 

	Mamoru absentmindedly reached for the phone 
with one hand, and went around the bar to see 
Usagi laying on the floor unconscience.  

"Usako..." he mouthed, dropping the phone to the 
floor beside her. Going to his knees, the taller 
man checked quickly for a pulse. "Oh God, Usako."  
His hands worked quickly, moving her over onto her 
back. 

	Her chest rose and fell in quick gasps and 
her face was pale.   "She's breathing..." he noted 
quietly to himself, unknowingly letting out a 
breath of relief. 

	After calling an ambulance, Mamoru covered 
her body with a blanket and held her hand softly, 
Chibi-Usa sitting beside him; her eyes swollen 
from crying.  

~*~*~

	Time stopped for a single man that day. 
The crowded hospital corridors went un-noticed 
as he moved down them towards her room.  Words 
kept repeating in his head...

the baby moved sideways...

	...oxygen cut off from umbilical cord

	had to take the baby early...
	
	... he might not make it.
		
	Your wife is in serious condition...

	... not much time left.

	His heart pounded loudly in his ears as 
the door to her room opened up. Tubes ran from 
various machines, making her already weakened 
body seem even frailer. His footsteps were soft 
as he came to the side of her bed.

	"Usako?" he croaked.

	Heavy eyelids made seeing almost impossible 
for Usagi, but somehow she managed to open them 
and look at her husband. "Mamo-chan...how's... 
the baby?" she gasped as if for her last breath.

	"He's going to be okay... you're going to 
be okay. You have to be."

	Her head shook slightly to the side. "Iie 
Mamo... I can't hold on..." she whispered.

	"No Usako. Don't talk like that. Save your 
strength so you can get better. We... we have a 
family to raise Usako.. please."

	A tear rolled down her face and she 
closed her eyes. "Gomen Mamo-chan... it hurts 
so bad. I see her... my mother, she'll let me 
come back to you. I promise."  

@-->---   @-->---
"I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly...
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside?..."
@-->---   @-->---

	Mamoru refused to hear her words, his 
heart screaming that he could make it better - 
he HAD to make it better. He brushed some 
strands of hair away from her face. "Baby, 
listen to me. You'll be fine. We've been 
through worse and... you've got so much to 
live for.  The girls need you, the children 
need you," a sob clutched at his throat. "*I* 
need you."

@-->---   @-->---
"Are you searching for words that you can't find?
Trying to hide your emotions, but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye..."
@-->---   @-->---
	
	Her grip loosened somewhat and Mamoru 
leaned over her,  taking little relief in seeing 
her chest rise painfully. 

	"Mamo... I love you. Tell Chi--Chibi-Usa 
good things... about me. Let...her know--that I 
love... her." Tears coursed down her face and 
dripped off her chin. "And .... our baby--take 
good... care of... him..."

@-->---   @-->---
"I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth; hoping for someday.. 
Someday..."
@-->---   @-->---

	"No Usako.. no! You have to hold on. You 
have to live for us... please don't leave me. 
I... I don't want to live without you. You?re 
my life, I can't live without you!" he pleaded, 
laying his head on her chest.

@-->---   @-->---
"Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side..."
@-->---   @-->---

	A weak hand pushed his dark bangs out of 
his face. Tears poured salty rivers down her 
pale cheeks. "I must... Mamo-chan, I'll... come 
back to you--one day. I swear...I----"
	
@-->---   @-->---
"And I know, this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry,
But whatever happens know that I'll... "
@-->---   @-->---

	The straight line and loud beeping filled 
the room and Mamoru fell to his knees, still 
holding her hands. "Oh God, NO! Please Usako! 
Don't leave ME!!!" Sobs tore unmercifully at his 
body, tears clouding his vision. "Usako... no..."

	Strong arms came around him, prying him 
away from her body. The doctor patted him on the 
shoulder. "I'm sorry Chiba-san... there's nothing 
we could have done."

	After gathering himself, Mamoru went towards 
the lobby to inform her parents and their friends. 

	Everyone held their breath as he walked 
in. Raising blood shot eyes to everyone in the 
room, he shook his head and collapsed into a 
chair, burying his head in his hands.

	Sobs and tears filled the room, the girls 
and the Tsukino's each crying over their loss of 
a best friend, daughter and Princess.

	A small hand on Mamoru's knee brought him 
back from his world of sorrow. Looking down, blue 
eyes meet huge red one's. "Papa..?"

	"Chibi-Usa," he whispered, picking her up. 

	"Is Mama taking a nap?"

	Mamoru nodded slowly, tears trailing off 
his face. "Hai. Mama is taking a long nap." 

	Chibi-Usa buried her head in Mamoru's 
neck and cried softly.

@-->---   @-->---
"I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth, 
Hoping that someday you'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday..."
@-->---   @-->---
 
~*~

	"Of course we'll be together, for always. 
It would take moving heaven and Earth to take me 
away from you...." her voice resounded in Mamoru's 
head over and over.

	He picked up a picture of him and Usagi on 
their wedding day.  Her face was healthy, happy 
and so full of life that his insides twisted. "Why 
God..? Why?" he pleaded. 

	His feet slowly lead him around the house, 
his fingertips gently touching pictures, perfume, 
make-up containers, anything that reminded him of 
her. The band on his left finger caused tears to 
well up in his eyes. 

	A baby's cry startled him out of his memories 
and reminded him that he still had their kids... and 
that their kids needed him right now.

@-->---   @-->---
"And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry,
But whatever happens know that I'll... "
@-->---   @-->---
	
~*~ Roughly a year later ~*~

	The head stone glistened in the moonlight, 
the heavens opened and allowed rain to pour like 
tears that Mamoru couldn't cry. His fingers ran 
lovingly over the words...

	Beloved daughter, friend, mother and wife.
			Chiba-Tsukino Usagi
	Our hearts will always cherish this Princess.

	The dates... twenty-four was too young to 
die... too young to leave him and their children, 
friends and family. Too long had Mamoru tried to 
live without her. 

	The blade caught the light reflecting off the 
stone. He pulled it up and watched as it rushed 
towards him. "I'm coming Usako..."

	The impact never came. Before his very eyes 
the knife was thrown to the side and something warm 
ran across his cheek. If the Earth Prince didn't know 
any better; he'd swore it was her hand.

	"Usako... I need you. I'll wait a little longer; 
but I don't know how much more I can stand."

@-->---   @-->---
"I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth 
Hoping that someday you'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday..."
@-->---   @-->---
 
	Chibi-Usa ran into the living room with 
make-up smudged on her face; one of Usagi's 
shirts on her small form and it seemed as if 
she'd taken a bath in Usagi's favorite perfume. 
The smell reached Mamoru long before the four-year 
old did. A small black headed boy came crawling 
in after his sister, making choking sounds.

	"Papa, do I look as pretty as Mama now?"

	Mamoru's eyes looked her over and for the 
first time since the day she died, he felt tears 
welling up in his eyes. 

	Chibi-Usa watched him in horror. "Gomen nasai! 
Don't cry Papa! I sorry!"

	Giving her a weak smile, Mamoru walked towards 
the bedroom.  His eyes looked at the double bed for a 
long time. Remembering laying on it, holding her in 
his arms. The nights of storms, nights of peacefullness, 
nights of passion. His knees gave out from under him 
and clenched hands tore at the comforter. 

	For the first time since the day Usagi died... 

	... Mamoru cried.

~*~
	
	The wind rose through out Tokyo. Makoto buried 
her hands in her pockets and ran towards her apartment. 
"If I didn't know any better, I'd think the world would 
freeze over."

	Her companion looked up sharply. "Mako-chan, do
you know what you just said?" Ami asked while buring 
her face in her shirt to block out the cold wind.

	The taller woman stopped short and looked out 
over the city. Ice hung from everywhere, snow covered 
the ground and the wind blew unmercifully. "You don't
think...?"
	
	Ami nodded. "Usagi."

@-->---   @-->---
"Waiting for someday 
Believing in someday 
Praying for someday, I'll be..."
@-->---   @-->---

	Mamoru looked out the window, then closed 
the blinds. "Please let this mean she's coming," 
he pleaded to no one.

@-->---   @-->---
"Longing for someday 
Clinging to someday 
Cherishing someday, I'll be..."
@-->---   @-->---

	That night the wind howled outside the 
house, making it seem almost as if it would 
tumble over.

	Mamoru moaned in his sleep, arms wrapped 
around her pillow. "Usako..." he mumbled.
	
@-->---   @-->---
"Thinking of someday 
Dreaming of someday 
Wishing for someday, I'll be..."
@-->---   @-->---

	A single tear slid down his cheek. Before 
it hit the pillow under him, it started 
crystalizing. In one swift motion, it spread all 
of the house, freezing everything within.

	Inside Mamoru's crystal coffin, his face 
turned to a slight smile. His mind playing out a 
scene where he held Usagi in his arms once more.

@-->---   @-->---
"Living for someday 
Counting on someday 
Knowing that one day... "
@-->---   @-->---
	
~*~ 
	A tall elegant woman in a flowing white 
gown, accented lightly with gold slowly walked 
through the crystal house. Memories flooded 
her mind from when she lived in that house with 
that man laying before her on the bed. His bangs 
fell over his forehead and a soft smile adorned 
his lips. She reached out to brush the strands 
away from his eyes as she had done hundreds of 
times before.

	With reluctance Mamoru opened his eyes and 
yawned. A soft pressure on his face caused him to 
look up. He jumped in surprise; but mostly 
complete, overwhelming joy.

	"Usako!" In one swift movement, she was 
laying beside him, being covered in gentle, hungry 
lips. "I love you," he whispered over and over.

	Weight lifted off his shoulders, tears 
coming to his eyes; for the first time in over 
a year, when he said those words, he heard her 
respond.

	"I love you, too."

@-->---   @-->---
"...I will see you..." 
@-->---   @-->--- 

*sniff* I LOVE that song ^_^
Email me PLEASE!!!!! PLEASE!!!! I swear, 
I'll start dancing the email dance and singing
to it!! ^_~
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