AN: This is my first fanfic. Please be gentle with the Flames. This story is 
written following the North American Animated series, yes, perhaps inferior 
to the Japanese Version, but it's the only version that I'm exposed to. The 
Only major change I've made to the anime plot is that Zoycite is a man. Oh, 
and just so you know, this is not so Much about Sailor Moon as it is about 
the rest of the Sailors.
Disclaimer: This is my first disclaimer. Of course I don't Own Sailor Moon, 
and I'm kind of glad I don't, because the Power would corrupt me beyond all 
repair. I am just Borrowing the ideas of Naoko Takeuchi because they're 
Better than anything I could think up.
A Shared Past-Loves Lost
By Ahn Na Blue (Rated PG)

	The fire priestess knelt slowly, as if she were
feeling the tests of age on her joints. The temple was
quiet, and it was far past midnight. A shiver caught her
around the shoulders although the sacred fire shone
brightly before her, coloring the darkened shrine with a
dancing mellow light.
	She hugged herself tightly and peered into the blaze,
but afraid that she would see dark eyes staring back at
her, she looked away and busied herself with the tray
sitting beside her on the mats.
	They would be here soon, she knew. She could feel
their mind link pulling taut; it was part of what had
awakened her, but not all. Mina would be the first to
arrive, living nearby, and the tea was already steeping.
The foods of comfort would be ready when her friends slid
open the door, one by one. They would all need it, after
the horrors they had seen, the hot tea would cauterize
their raw hearts.
	"It couldn't have happened that way,"Raye thought
with resolve. "I must be wrong." Behind her, the door to
the shrine slid open softly. She heard the scuffle of shoes
removed and feet padding slowly to kneel beside her.
	"Raye-"
	The raven-haired girl shook her head gently for
silence as she poured steaming broth from the pot. "We'll
know soon enough, Mina." She could not bring herself to
meet her blonde friend's eyes. There was a brokenness in
Mina's voice that Raye hated to hear. As the two girls
sipped and waited, Raye fell back into the memory of her
dream.
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	The palace of the moon was a wonder of the galaxy, a
place where alabaster walls fell into sparkling midnight
waters of magnificent fountains. The courtyard was lush,
the cobblestone paths glittered, and the light was always
silver. A fine mist hung about the palace parapets, as if
to guard the inhabitants.
	Queen Serenity was entertaining diplomats from
foreign planets, in hopes of gaining allies in the fight
with the evil queen of the Negaverse. The royal guard
surrounded the throne room, to make sure that the party
inside would not be disturbed.
	Prince Darien was on one knee, swearing an oath of
loyalty to the moon kingdom, and although his head was
slightly bowed, his eyes never left those of his princess,
his betrothed. Queen Serenity was satisfied with his oath,
and equally satisfied with the emotions she felt coursing
between the Prince and her daughter, Serena. She stole a
sideways glance at the Princess, and despite the
seriousness of the situation, felt a smile curl on her
lips. Her heart was full as she looked at her daughter; she
knew that Serena was so in love, and so proud of her
Prince.
	IN fact, no one was displeased with the match her
daughter had made. Behind her, her guardians, The Sailor
Scouts, stood vigilantly and dutifully. As Prince Darien
took leave of the royal pair to train for the battlefield,
his armored escort of Generals nodded to the Scouts
respectfully. The Queen smiled. It was also well known that
the Sailor Scouts and the Prince's Generals were very close
indeed.
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A knock at the shrine door snapped the priestess out of her
reverie.
	"Raye?" a soft voice wondered, "Are you awake? I
think something has happened."
	Raye gracefully lifted herself from the floor and
slid open the door to reveal Amy, cheeks flushed and
gripping her blue sweater tightly around her. There was a
sharp intake of breath when she saw Mina already there, the
sound someone makes when they see something expected, but
not hoped for. Large flakes of snow had begun falling
slowly outside, and she shook sleet and water droplets from
her blue hued hair as she stepped inside.
	"I didn't know if I should come," Amy stated. "It's
so late and I don't know if this qualifies as Sailor
business." She smiled shakily at Mina, who held a cup out
to her.
	Raye's eyes went dark as she prophesied. "Lita will
be here in a few minutes."
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	Four couples walked slowly along the darkened
courtyard pathways. Each person drug their feet, wanting
the night to go on indefinitely. Arms were linked and quiet
whispers of endearments spoken. They were the guardians,
but for the moment their duties could be forgotten, as they
knew their Princess was safely inside the palace with her
Prince.
	"Zoycite, I worked up a profile of the Shadow
Warriors on my microcomputer," Amy said, speaking softly,
as always. "They are just as strong as we thought. I don't
want you to take any risks on Earth. Stay close to the
other Generals and don't forget that-"
	She was cut short by a finger to her lips and an arm
that held her tightly to his chest. "Don't worry, Little
Genius," he assured her gently, and planted a small kiss on
her forehead. Gradually, the furrow in her brow lessened,
and she gave a small smile.
	"Will you be back in time for the ball?"
	"I wouldn't miss it," he promised. "Will you wear the
pearl barrettes I got for you?"
	Amy only smiled and rested her head on his shoulder
as they strolled.
	Ahead of them, Lita and Mina gazed up at the glowing
blue orb of the Earth.
	"When I think of what's happening there," Lita began,
picturing the frightened faces of Earthling children as
they watched their home planet battle the scourge of the
Negaverse. She closed her eyes and shuddered.
	"We're all in such danger," Mina said sadly. "Even
the moon. Oh Malachite, why do you have to go to Earth?"
The sensitive blonde turned fearfully into his arms, and
he stroked her hair.
	"It is my duty, my love," he soothed, "You know that.
But I will be back on the moon before you know it, to
defend by your side."
	Mina raised her head to look into his steel blue
eyes. "Promise me," she begged, and received a smile and a
gloved hand upon her cheek.
	"I promise."
	Lita's hands clenched suddenly to fists. "The
question isn't why should they go to Earth," she insisted,
"it is why aren't we going with them!"
	Neflite's arms were strong around her. "You know you
are needed here to protect Princess Serena." Lita's green
eyes flashed with frustration. Neflite was quick to
add,"Besides, we are only going to control the threat to
Earth and to support Prince Darien. If I brought you,
you'd probably track down the Negaverse Queen and
electrocute her until her hair was charred black. We are
still trying to avoid all out war."
	Lita smirked and twisted to run her fingers through
his walnut brown hair. "But I do fight best when I'm along
side you," she sighed.
	"I'll be back soon enough," he smiled.
	Raye and Jadeite had taken a seat near the rose
garden fountain. The girl's arms were crossed against her
chest and the mood was tense.
	"You know I hate it when you have to go away like
this!" She snapped.
	"It's only for a little while, and you're being
unreasonable,"Jadeite countered softly, trying to control
the situation.
	"UNREASONABLE?! IT'S DANGEROUS! And I know what
you're going to say, you're going to say duty this and duty
that, but I don't care! I don't care about duty! I've had
enough duty to last me my entire life!" Raye looked down,
hiding the welling tears beneath layers of jet-black hair.
"I'm sensing something really bad about this Jadeite."
	"And I trust your intuition," he said, plucking the
reddest rose from a nearby bush, stripping it of thorns,
and tucking it behind her ear. "But I will return safely,
in time for the ball tonight, with Serena's Prince in tow."
He lifted her chin and gave a dazzling smile. Raye took a
deep breath, and kissed him with all her hope, all her
prayers that her feeling was wrong. Losing him she could
not bear.
	Four princesses received promises of love that night.
And none would be fulfilled.
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	Lita had arrived as expected, breathing quickly from
her run to the temple. She had removed her green parka and
thrown it angrily into the corner with the other girls'
jackets. Now they sat in a circle, hands nervously grasping
a cup of tea, glances darting quickly from one to the
others, each not wanting to say what they remembered.
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	The ballroom was filled with milling people, dancing,
laughing, and sipping drinks. On the edge of it all stood
four young girls harnessed with the responsibility of a
kingdom. Each was in formal dress, Mina in princess cut
yellow taffeta, Lita in back slit emerald green velvet, and
Amy with her powder blue bodiced dress with a flowing
petticoated skirt, pearl barrettes in her hair. Each stood
proudly, and with an alert eye scanned the ballroom. Raye
stood a bit apart from the group, more nervous than the
rest, in floor length scoop necked red silk. Lita felt her
friend's worry and reached out slowly to squeeze her hand.
Raye smiled weakly, and as she glanced across the room her
eyes lit up.
	Four tall shadows had appeared in the doorway, and in
stepped Neflite, Zoycite, Malachite, and Jadeite, in full
military dress. The princesses waited silently, and were
each swept onto the dance floor, relieved, smiles given
freely from their lips. The musicians played well that
night, helping the people of the moon to forget their
treacherous situation, to free their hearts from worry.
	"Where is the Prince?" Amy asked Zoycite, slipping
her arms around his neck.
	Zoycite gave a worried look around the room, and
tensed up nervously. Satisfied, his eyes returned to the
questioning girl. "With his Princess, of course."
	And then the room stopped. A wide circle opened up in
the floor as Serena and Darien entered, dancing gracefully.
The music played only for them, a couple in love facing
danger. Darien never noticed his vanquished Generals
standing amongst the crowd. His eyes and heart were for
Serena that night.
	"WE'RE UNDER ATTACK! LEAVE THE PALACE AND ARM
YOURSELVES! WE NEED EVERYONE TO FIGHT!" The ballroom
erupted in chaos as the two advising felines of the Moon
Kingdom, Luna and Artemis, ran through the doorway,
shouting their warnings. Panicking people scattered,
streaming through the doors.
	"Quickly!" Malachite shouted to the four girls,"To
the private armory! We have hidden special provisions
there!" The Generals motioned with their arms, guiding them
towards the back exit.
	"WAIT!" Amy yelled. "Where is the Princess?!"
	"She is with the Prince. She'll be safe for now. Come
on, you heard the cats, you're needed to fight!" Zoycite
was insistent as he began to push Amy through the doorway.
The girls exchanged glances, then nodded.
	"MARS POWER!"
	"VENUS POWER!"
	"JUPITER POWER!"
	"MERCURY POWER!"
	And then the Sailor Scouts were running down the long
marble corridor towards the armory, the General following
close behind.
	The armory was a large, granite-enforced dome used as
a safety shelter and for weapons storage. The echoes
resonated from the walls as the doors were thrust open and
four sailor suited warriors rushed in. The room was empty.
	"Where are your provisions?" Venus wondered aloud.
"Malachite, what's going on?" A chill crept up their backs
as the Generals swung the doors shut behind them. Eyes
turned to hate.
	"Fools!" Malachite bellowed, "There are no
provisions! You are the strongest warriors of the Moon
Kingdom and Beryl, Queen of the Negaverse, OUR Queen, sent
us to destroy you!"
	The Sailor Scouts gasped collectively.
	"Neflite," Sailor Jupiter pleaded, "you can't mean
it. We mean so much to each other."
	Neflite only smirked. "Me? A champion of the
Negaverse in love with a Sailor Failure? You're pathetic.
And after tonight, you and your beloved moon will be no
more."
	Jupiter stepped back involuntarily, stung. "Traitor,"
she whispered, shaking her head in disbelief.
	Sailor Mercury was typing rapidly into her computer.
"I knew it! she declared triumphantly. "Zoycite, you've
been brainwashed somehow. You've got to try to snap out of
it. According to my calculations-"
	"SILENCE!" Malachite screamed, and Mercury bit back
her words. Each Sailor looked into her lover's eyes and saw
nothing but hate reflected back. Hate, and a lifetime of
memories erased. Their hearts broke, and tears pressed
against their throats.
	Please, Mars thought, please, don't make me do this.
Don't-. She looked up and saw the four men dressed in the
gray caped uniforms of the Negaverse, armed with a sword
and shield, ready to attack. She inhaled deeply. "Jadeite!"
she cried. "Listen to me! You love me. I know you don't
remember, but you have to try. Think Jadeite! Remember
what we have together! Remember the day when we snuck away
from training to spend the day alone?" She began to walk
slowly towards him. "We danced under the blue light of the
Earth and you told me that I was the beauty of your soul."
Her voice caught in her throat, and silver tears began to
slide down her cheeks. "Please!" she cried desperately. "I
know you can't hurt me. I know some part of you remembers
how much we've shared. I love you Jadeite."
	Jadeite's eyes had been downcast beneath the fall of
his blonde hair. But as Mars stopped to stand before him,
his eyes rose to meet hers. Something in them flickered, a
brief memory of lying in a pod of dark energy, of an evil
red haired woman standing above him. "Raye," he whispered,
and hope sprang eagerly into her eyes. Then the dark power
surged. The forceball of energy that flew from his hand
sent Sailor Mars flying into the sloped wall of the dome
with a sickening thud, and she slid into a small heap
without a scream.
	I can't, she thought, closing her eyes against the
pain, I can't I can't I can not do this. She felt her
friends' eyes upon her, each too shocked and hurt to offer
any help. They would look to her, as they often did, to
give them strength. She clenched her eyes tightly and
thought of Jadeite's smiling face. 'You are the beauty of
my soul,' he had said. 'My only treasure.' And then the
Soldier of Mars swallowed her tears and silenced her heart,
inhaling deeply for a mighty scream:
	"PROTECT OUR PRINCESS!"
	She looked up to see the resolve come into to eyes
of her friends. Mars leapt to her feet. The Generals
crouched and began to growl as beams smashed, fire ignited,
bubbles blasted, and thunder crashed.
	"TRAITOR!" Jupiter screamed again and again, angry
tears threatening to spill. They fought bravely, despite
the weight in their chests, blinking away tears, gritting
their teeth. They fought against men they had trusted to
try and save their way of life.
	No one saw the Sailor Scouts fall, one by one, at the
hands of their loves. No one heard their cries of disbelief
as they watched each other perish. And not one of them shed
a final tear as their world crashed down around them.
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	"It is definitely the same dream," Lita declared
solemnly.
	"I wonder what it all means," Mina said between sips
of tea.
	Raye shook her head quickly. "No Lita. It wasn't just
a dream. It was a genuine memory of our past."
	The girls' brows furrowed, not wanting to hear out
loud what they had all suspected. "Oh, Raye, are you sure?"
	"I didn't want to think so, but that fact that we all
had the identical dream doesn't leave much room for doubt.
Besides, the emotional intensity was unlike any other dream
I've had."
	Lita stood up suddenly, hands clenched to fists.
"You're wrong. It's just the Negaverse messing with our
heads." The tall brunette began a quick, worried pace back
and forth.
	"Lita," Amy interjected, "Luna did say that our
memories of the past would eventually surface completely."
	"I don't care what Luna said. This was just a stupid
dream. A dumb nightmare that's keeping me up so I'll fail
my geometry test tomorrow."
	"But-"
	"NO, AMY!" Lita shouted. "There are no buts because
this was just a dream. Pizza after midnight, subliminal
messages, mass hypnosis. IT'S NOT THE TRUTH!" She paused to
look at her friends, breathing in gasps, her eyes glossy
with desperate tears. "It can't be true, it can't be,
because no one I loved that much could ever-" her voice
hitched painfully as the tears escaped. "IT'S NOT FAIR!"
she wailed, hugging her arms across her chest and
crumpling to the floor. "It's not fair."
	Mina reached out to cradle the head of her broken
friend. Tears were flowing freely from each of their eyes
as they sat together. "We'll never get them back," Mina
sighed, looking to the ceiling, trying to hold her voice
steady, trying to be brave. Her words came out in a breathy
torrent. "We'll never have a second chance." She thought
of the last days of the battle with Beryl. She remembered
the relief she had felt when Sailor Moon had killed
Malachite, and her face crumpled.
	Amy, for once, did not search her microcomputer for
some explanation, only knelt quietly, lip quivering as she
asked to no one in particular: "Will we tell Serena?"
	Raye thought once more of Jadeite's smiling face, his
soft, mocking laugh, and the glint in his dark eyes. She
thought of her meatball-haired friend, asleep now in
Darien's arms. "No," she said strongly, "The Princess has
her Prince. This is ours to share."
	Tears continued into the night, as four young girls,
forced to shoulder the weight of the world, mourned the
loss of love and lives past. Behind them, the Sacred Fire
raged.

The End.

So there it is. It's the first thing I've written in a long
time. Email me at ahnnablue@hotmail.com. If I get enough
flames I'll probably stop writing. Death threats will have
the same effect, but they are not appreciated unless they
are highly entertaining. Thanks for reading.