My Eternal Misery By: Elyse Authors notes: Ever heard the song I Love You by Sarah McLachlan? That is what the this story is based on. It is from Darien's point of view even though I'm a girl. Disclamier: I do not own Sailor Moon I am just borrowing the characters from her wonderful creator. Disclamier: I do not own Sarah McLachlan's music but I and borrowing it from the very talented Sarah McLachlan. Here goes! Oh God how I miss her, she is tearing me up inside. I wish that I could talk to her but the dreams tell me to stay away. I only stay away becuase I love her. I really do love her. I want to talk to her, I want to be with her, I want to rock her to sleep, I want to be there for her. Well I guess sitting around the house is not going to bring her any closer to me. I wish that I had not hurt her so. Saying that I loved another besides her just about killed me inside, I could barely say that I hated her even though I love her more than ever. I'll try shopping. That cheers her up. Maybe it will work with the other half of her soul. This is so depressing. Wedding rings, roses, hell I can make roses and it just depresses me and its not fair. I should be showering her in my roses, not keeping them from her. All of the couples, it's not fair. I should be taking her shopping. Not wandering around in my own misery. I know that I only pushed her away to save her. Oh no, there she is. My Serena, oh how I wish that she and I could be together. Those damn dreams. I hate those damn dreams. Oh no she's walking towards me. "Darien, Darien please wait, please talk to me please" a sobbing Serena asked me. "No Serena, I don't want to talk. Please leave me alone. Please. Just go. You know that I am with someone else" I whispered. "Darien you don't mean that. I know you don't. Please, tell me what's wrong. I'm begging you" she sobbed. "It's none of your business" I replied. "If it involves anything with you or me then it does involve me. I'm going to ask you one more time Darien, why don't you love me anymore?" she whispered. I am not going to answer, if I do then I am not going to be able to control my self. Oh Serena how I love you. I wish that I could tell you. "Fine Darien, I don't want to see you again" she yelled as she began to cry and run away. All I cna do is think about Serena. After her accident I don't know I how I am going to help her get better. I can't believe that I made her so upset that she would run out in the middle of traffic. Oh God I don't know what to do. I did not get to say I love you to her before they wheeled her away. She is so lucky. I have to see her. I just have to. Oh God how I hate hospitals. They just make me even more depressed. I wish that I had told her earlier. Oh no what have I done. All I see is my soul mate wrapped in bandages and tubes running in and out of her. Oh my poor Serena. "Serena I am so sorry, I should have told you. I love you my rabbit. I am so sorry. Please answer me. Please Serena. I was only trying to protect you and instead I almost killed you. Please Serena talk to me. Yell at me, cry at me, hit me, kick me, do something." I begged. I better go if she is not going to talk to me. "Goodmhphm "Darien, your not leaving until you tell me everything. I was almost killed twice. It killed me once to hear you say that you loved someone else, and then you hurt me so much that I almost physically did die. Is that what you wanted Darien?"She asked. "No Serena, that's not it at all. Please forgive me. I never ment to hurt you, I was only trying to protect you. I had these dreams that if I did not stay away from you, then you would not live. I could not bear that so I listened to those dreams to protect you. But instead I hurt you. I am so sorry Serena, there was no one else but you, and only you. Please forgive me"I replied. "Oh, Darien, I love you." "I love you too Serena, lets never part." -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_--_-_-_-_-_-_ Well that's the happy ending one. I'll have the other ending out next week. Email me with comments or flames at bekkiely@yhc.edu Thanks for reading!