Hi minna. I'm back with five. I have a few things to say to ya all. First I would like to thank all the people that have email me. I didn't realize it would be that great of a hit. Secondly I'm having a promblem with a couple of people saying that I copied them. I would never copy anyone. I've seen people write stories that are very close to another or at least the base line of it all. I'm sorry to the people that feel that I am copying them, but I would never do that. Its against my beliefs. Plus I don't see why people would copy off the internet because they aren't get any money or anything, are they?... Did I miss something? I could see some people wanting the 'glory' and all but I don't I just want to improve my writing that way someday I might write a story and have it published. I just want to write something that was different from what I had been seeing. I was also in a dark mood where I wanted to write about the other possiblity. The possiblity of losing everything. And remember I can't go through all the librarys that are out there on the net and make sure that I'm not writing to closely to another person's story. That would take ages! Please read my other story thats in the works right now, Angel for Earth. its about Sailor Earth and the Sailor Elements, also it has another character called Solar Flare coming in this week. It starts off pretty slow if you like the kind of writing from this story. But I'm getting to darker things in the characters life. Now that I have said that I would like to get back to the story. Runaway Chapter 5 One Step at a Time Rated PG-13 By: Earth Angel Email: Earth_Angel_001@sailormoon.com @->------------------------------------------------------- "Naru-chan, I just don't know what to do anymore." I sat across the table from my friend, "I just don't know what to do about Bri. She's so sick and she just doesn't understand that she can't do all the other things that the kids are doing right now." She placed her hand on mine. "When did you say the operation was again? I'll come with you, keep you company while they work on Bri." "Its a week from tomorrow. Thanks Naru-chan. You're the best." We hug and I pick up my purse and I walked out. I was just turning a corner when I walked right smack into someone. Do I need to say who that person was. After all I am known for running into him. I look up into dark blue eyes. "Hello Mamoru." I back out of his arms that had caught me. "Hello Usagi." and with that we walked away from each other without another thought. I would be happy if I never saw him or the senshi again. Who needs the heartache and who needs the pain. But I know that I still love him and without him the heartache will be worst now than ever before. I head towards home. @->--------------- The Temple.... "Lets face it girls. We need Sailor Moon more than anything and we all miss Usagi." Mina said, "We have all changed and have been falling apart without her. Of course we all have stuck together but we haven't had that real girl talk in a long while. So I propose a plan, code name: Operation Moon. We get Usagi back, not only as our leader but as our friend." @->------------------------------ Sara sat in the middle of the maze, waiting for him. He was there. She knew that he was. His head poked threw the hedge. His brown hair slightly a mess and his green eyes shining. "Sean, you came. I'm glad you did. There is something I must tell you." She looked up into his beautiful eyes and stroked the side of his face. "What? You know that you can tell me anything." She pulled away from him, "I'm not part of this world. I'm not human." "MOMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY." I stop writing. How am I ever going to get this book finished? I start to Bri's room in a hurry. I find her sitting up in bed, blankets around her and tears falling down her face. What is it baby?" I go to the side of her bed and take her into my arms. "I had a bad dream. There was this monster and he told me that he was going to eat my heart away." "Oh sweetie it was just a dream. You're going to be just fine." I rock her to sleep again. I wish I knew for sure that she was going to be okay. I know that she must live threw this. She is my child. She has done nothing wrong in this world yet I on the other hand. Are the Gods trying to punish me? I turn my thoughts back to that of the senshi and Mamoru. I know that they are going to try and get me back. I can sense it. I won't fall for it. I know that I can stay away from them but when it comes to Mamoru. He still makes me weak in the knees. But after what happened to me I don't think that I will ever be with another man. Why should I they are all still assholes. @->---------------------------- I threw another attack at the youma. Why did I ever join back up in this. I know why. Because I don't want anyone to get hurt and the senshi aren't strong enough to handle this type of youma. I throw another attack destroying the creature. "Sailor Moon." I hear my name and I turn to see all the people that I had once called friends. I turn around. I might as well hear what they have to say. "Yes Rei." "We want you to join us. We are very sorry about what happened way back when. But its over now. We need your help and we miss you. If you won't at least forgive us and become our friend could you at least join us and fight with us?" I look at each of the girls. Each seem to have a look in their eyes. It was something I used to know. Something called Hope. I no longer understand this word as much as I use to. But still, I have some understanding to it because Hope came to me once in Detroit along with my daughter. But now it is leaving me again and I can only 'hope' that my daughter lives through this. "No I won't join you. You had my help once and you threw it away. You had my friendship once and you threw it away too. I won't be some toy. Something you play with once or twice and then forget about it and then come back to it one day. I'm only here because you all are too weak to handle things your selves. I won't put up with your shit." I turn around and head back to my house. I hope that Bri didn't wake up again. Its a good thing that the gang is all there. I climb in through my window and lay across my bed. The computer blinks at me with the half written story. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I never wrote that story. I lay there watching the cursor blink. I close my eyes and fall off into my dream world. A world full of nightmares that will haunt me til my dying day. @->------------- "The operation is fairly normal. Well that is about it Ms. Mace. Thanks for coming in." The doctor says. He sits behind the desk with Mamoru at his side. "Thank you doctors." I get up and walk out the door. Again I'm half way down the hall way when someone grabs my hand. I look up into Mamoru's face "Usako, you can't forget what we once had. Please give us another chance?" "Do you think that I could forget. It is impossible to forget that Mamoru. Its impossible to forget your soulmate. Impossible to forget every touch, every kiss. Impossible to forget the way they dumped you and left you crying. When they rip your dreams from you. They make you into an empty hollow shell. How could I forget that Mamoru. You did that all to me. Why should I give you another chance when you have put me through all that and more? Give me one good reason." He takes me by the shoulders, "Because I love you Usako. I became all that when I lost you. I did it because I thought that it was for the best. I would have rather had you alive and not be with you then be have you dead and not be with you." He said it with such passion I felt my heart melt. I have not felt this way in a long time. I thought that I had lost all feeling when it came to emotions, mostly love. But I learned to love again yet I have never felt the burning desire for anyone but him. I thought that I had lost this feeling when I left but now I see that it has only grown stronger. Yet I am ashamed of what happened to me. I might not be able to forgive the scouts but I could forgive him. He did what he did because he was afraid of losing me. Maybe I could learn to forgive the man that hurt me. Maybe Mamoru could help heal my scars. Maybe I could feel a mans touch again? Maybe I should just try.... @->-------------------------- Thats it for this week. I'll have more out next week if I have the time. Please email me. Ja ne