Email me: crimson_astral@hotmail.com... Please? I LUV FEEDBACK WITH ALL MY LITTLE HEART!!!! Even flames if you want. Go see my Website at www.geocities.com/silverarchive And again I say,,,, Please????? Thoughts of Love: Mars ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I've watched you since I've known you, silently wishing. I couldn't admit it, I couldn't even see it. You were always the light in my dark, the laughter to my frown, the counterpart of everything I am. I was so blind to it, I could feel it, hold it, but not see it as it was supposed to be seen. It was baried so deeply that I couldn't grasp it, and when it was close enough to touch I couldn't understand what it was. It was an emotion I had never known, had never identified before. When it came, I couldn't comprehend it, it was just there. Something down deep, but forcing itself to the surface every now and then. I didn't know what it was, it was unknown, so I didn't know what to call it, what to associate with it. It became something I couldn't stop, couldn't take on by myself. I became so angry at myself that I would take it out on you. It was almost as if I was angry at you, which I wasn't, but that's what I came to see it as. Anger at you, fights and tears, fake as they were to both of us still hurt. It took me the longest time to understand that it was love, this mysterious feeling inside, this amazing feeling that scared me so much I twisted it and turned it into hate and anger at the person I love and treasure most of all. I'm stupid, my chance was never born and I lost it anyway. A chance I never had came and passed and I didn't even recognize it. Your with your prince now, your savior and dear protector. It seems so right, a prince and princess finding eachother after so many years, just like out of a fairy tale. Once upon a time love knocked, and they lived happily ever after. The End. Destiny seems so cruel to me, I find something so amazing and wonderful it can make me understand pain and desregard it, make me see the stars and think happy thoughts, make me be happy, and I can't have it. Sometimes I wish that I could've gotten up the courage and told you when I found out. He was the carrier of your heart, but he had shattered it and thrown it in your face. I could've mended it, pick up the fragile pieces and put them back together. I could make you happy, I could make your eyes light up and your lips quirk into a smile, but I won't. You are his, and I know it's true. I'm 1000 years to late to do anything about it, and though I want to grab and hold you with everything I am, I see your happiness when he's around. I guess you deserve it after the pain and heartache the two of you have went through to reach your love. I can never give you up, I can never love another as much and as true as I love you, but I can still be happy, because you are happy. Aishiteru Serena, forever and more. >)End(< ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ReMinder::EMAIL ME!!!! crimson_astral@hotmail.com ReMinder::GO TO MY SITE!!!!!! www.geocities.com/silverarchive