1)Title-Speak Your Mind 2)By- Azurite 3)Email- sailor_andromida@yahoo.com 4)Part- 1 5)Rating- G-PG, I guess. Speak Your Mind/Mute (which do you like better ?) Hey hey ! It's Sailor Andromida, here, with my newest fic. I don't know WHERE I thought of this... but so far, the idea is good. Tell me what you think, at my fanfiction poll, on my webpage. Read my other fics, too! www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Gulf/8524/fanfic.html Okies ? Thanx. And, as always, thanks a million times to Sailor Elysia, Sailor Peace, JLaLa, Tiga Kat, UsaTsukno and all my online buddies !!! Thank you !!! Okay, I just read JLaLa's new fic, and she was so nice to me, so if she reads this :Thank you thank you ! She's like a sister, being all nice and talking to me ! Thank you ! And Sailor Peace, who thanks me in her fics, which are beyond good and could be called "controversial" and all that other great critique-y stuff ! She's so nice to talk to me ! Thank you millions ! P.S. My AOL instant messenger name is Meriellen5, and my email (MORE !) is sailor_andromida@yahoo.com. Okay ? BYEZ ! Disclaimer: Cut and paste here. (so I'm lazy. If you REALLY want to read a disclaimer, read my other fics, or even better, visit my SITE !) Setting: Sailormoon R, when Mamoru breaks up with Usagi... I'm using the Japanese names. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Usagi woke up with a start. A light in the distance glistened... two figures appeared in flashes of yellow and green light... then another. The cold feeling ran through her veins. The Negamoon... Usagi tossed aside her blankets and ran outside. "MOON CRYSTAL POWER ! MAKE UP !" She called, inducing her transformation. In a flash of pink light and ribbons, Usagi Tsukino was Sailormoon. She ran off in the direction of the Dark Energy, yelling to the other senshi on her communicator as she ran. It was some ten blocks from her house, in the park, where the droid was attacking. "Hold IT !" Sailormoon yelled at the droid. It turned abruptly, the two shadowed figures becoming apparent in the faint streetlight. "Sailormoon..." Calveras smirked. "So glad you could come." Petz remarked sarcastically. She motioned to the droid, who paused in its feeding of Crystal Point to stare at the sailor-suited super heroine. "Vocala..." It growled menacingly. Sailormoon's eyes widened in fear. This droid was HUGE, and green, with long claws and fangs....and...a microphone ? "Finish her off once and for all, Droid Vocala, and then finish this Crystal Point, too." Calveras told the droid, who nodded. The two sisters vanished. "All right you dumb droid, for trying to feed Dark Energy into this city, I will punish you...in the name of the moon !" Sailormoon cried, positioning herself in her normal pose. The droid grinned wickedly, and lunged towards her. Sailormoon dodged, just narrowly missing, but getting a gash on her side. Her flesh was now exposed from her her ribs down to her hip, and bleeding lightly. It was...getiing worse... "VOCALA...Sailormoon, you will pay !" Vocala lunged again, and this time, she didn't miss. She launched an attack just as she teleported out of the way. A black smoke enveloped Sailormoon's throat, squeezing it, as if someone choking her with a pair of hands. She made a gagging noise, and desperately tried to call out her scepter attack. No sound came out. As Sailormoon passed out, she felt the salty taste of blood in her mouth... her blood soaked side and gloves, and the red, red darkness. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Hehhe.... poor Sailormoon !" Vocala remarked, moving towards the fallen heroine. None of her comrades were here yet, so this was the perfect chance to dispose of her. Make her suffer. Vocala picked up the fallen girl, making deeper gashes and bruises wherever she could. She still didn't de-transform, much to Vocala's disappointment. Vocala caught sight of an apartment building in the distance, and crashed through the lobby, and the stairwell, dumping the girl in front of a doorway. She kicked her into it, and the girl awoke, and tried to scream. Again, no sound came forth. Vocala grinned, and kicked the girl again. Spasms wreaked Sailormoon's back, and the tears fell, but... she couldn't cry, or scream. There was no sound. She dimly heard Vocala's laughter, but blackness overcame her before she could do anything. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The nightmares plagued Mamoru again this night of the New Moon. He felt what he had done was right, for if Usagi was in danger... he would have to do ANYTHING to protect her. Staying away from her was the only way. He awoke early again, sweating in the cold night air. He rose from his bed, not glancing at the picture of them together. He knew what he'd see: the frame cracking, Usagi slumping down onto her knees, dead. He was about to switch on the lights and start a cup of cocoa, but he heard a strange noise just outside of his door. He edged closer to it, listening. It was muffled, but he could make soem words out... "Haha.... poor....moon...." A hard banging sounded and then more laughter. Mamoru glanced out of the peephole and caught sight of a hideous droid... a droid ! Moon...Sailormoon ! Mamoru watched in terror as the kicks the youma gave his fallen victim increased. He heard no cred, no sounds from her... if it was her, at all. Oh god... "Usako..." Mamoru mumbled, frightened beyond all other words. Finally, the droid was satisfied with its torture, and teleported away. Mamoru swung open the door and found her lying there, crumpled in an abnormal position. Blood was everywhere, and her sides were clawed open. Her hair was matted... her throat swollen. "USA !!!!!" Mamoru screamed suddenly, filling the night. He picked her up, not even thinking about the fact that she was still in Sailormoon form... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sailormoon awoke to a cold, wet feeling on her forehead. She bolted upright immediately, sending the wet cloth flying onto her lap. She looked around, haziness everywhere. There was a figure... a faint light source... everything was blurry. "Usa ?" A voice asked. Who...who was there ? There had been... night, then the battle. Then red. Saltiness, a painful blow to the side. "Usa ?" The voice repeated. Sailormoon blinked furiously, trying to clear her hazy vision. She could make out... what looked like a black and peach mop, a light lamp, and blowing... clouds ? Light blue, see-thru clouds ? Sailormoon opened her mouth to say something, but a burning sensation in her throat stopped her. Tears fell from her eyes, stinging an unseen cut on her cheek. Her vision finally cleared, and she saw Mamoru hunched over her, worry and concern written all over his face. "You're awake !" he exclaimed softly, hugging her tightly. Had Mamoru noticed Sailormoon hadn't a voice, he would have noticed her turn a sicky shade of blue. It was if her throat was... missing, in a strange anatomical sense. Sailormoon tried to tap on his back, but it didn't work. She finally went limp from lack of air. Mamoru noticed this abrupt movement, and released her, only to find she had fainted again. He was very worried. He laid her down again and began tending to her wounds, the worst being her exposed side. Many hours and several stitches later, she was all "fized up". Her side was disinfected and stitched up, her head bandanged and her arms covered in some spots with ice packs and others with hot compresses. Her legs were white now, with the faint hint of scratches, although most were covered with bandanges. "What happened...?" Mamoru mused aloud. He didn't care about anything besides Usagi, his USAKO, being tortured by that hideous droid... Sailormoon stirred. "Usa ?" Mamoru asked hopefully, kneeling beside her on the couch. Her eyes opened, and she sat up. She looked like she wanted to ask something, but her eyes showed sadness and her lips remained still. "What's wrong ? What happened...? You were... pretty beat up." Sailormoon stared at him, small tears falling down her cheeks. It didn't sting as much as before... Sailormoon turned away fom him, falling back into the couch, feigning sleep. "USAGI ! Tell me what happened ! PLEASE !" Mamoru begged, grasping her hands, folded on her side. Sailormoon turned yet again, looking at him with watery sapphire eyes. 'Mamoru...' she mouthed sadly. "Usako..." Mamoru murmured. It was wonderful...not seeing flashes of that horrid nightmare when he held her. He left his hands in hers, and she made no movement to pull away from him. "The droid attacked you...but how did you get here, and why... where are the others ?" Sailormoon made no response, but a slight BEEP BEEP interrupted their thoughts. "Usagi-chan ? Usagi-chan ? Where are you ??? We got to the park and... VENUS ! OH MY GOD !" Mercury paused, still not severing the connection. Mamoru and Sailormoon listened as Sailormercury's mini-computer beeped. "It's her blood, all right." Sailormercury announced. A shocked pair of gasps came from what Mamoru thought was Sailormars and Sailorvenus. "What happened, Mercury ? Where is she ?" Sailorjupiter questioned in fear. They had been too late... where was their leader ? "I don't know... there is some teleportation residue...from the droid coming from over there." Sailormercury pointed to the Azabu Apartment Complex. "Isn't that where Mamoru-san lives ?" Sailormars queried. Even if the droid wasn't there, they could always...*ahem* teach him a lesson for breaking Usagi's heart... Sailormars grinned. "Mars ? Is there something you find amusing ?" Sailormercury queried. Sailormars put on an innocent face and replied hurriedly, "Huh ? Oh no... nothing..." She walked quickly over to Sailorvenus and Sailorjupiter, whispering all the while. But due to the incessant beeping of Sailormercury's computer and the distance of the other senshi from Mercury's communicator, Mamoru and Sailormoon could not make out what the other three senshi were saying... if anything at all. A sudden "YEAH !" emerged from Sailorjupiter, and Sailormoon half-smiled at the thought of Mercury staring at her, as if Jupiter had gone crazy. "Sailorjupiter ? Is something wrong ?" Sailormercury asked, clicking her mini-computer shut. "Oh no...." Sailors Venus, Jupiter and Mars chorused innocently. The plan had formed... "I think we should ask Mamoru-san if he saw anything. Perhaps he was here as Tuxedo Kamen ?" Sailormercury asked. Everyone nodded, while Sailormars enthusiastically yelled "YES !". Mamoru could only wonder. "Usagi-chan, wherever you are, we'll find you." Mercury whispered before shutting off her communiator. She had no idea that Sailormoon had heard that... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "So they're coming here." Mamoru said, standing. He looked at Sailormoon, wondering. "Usagi...why don't you detransform ?" Sailormoon's eyes widened. She opened her mouth to say something, but no sound came forth. The words formed on her lips, but...there was no sound. Mamoru stepped from the kitchen and looked at her, concerned. What was wrong with her ? He had fixed up everything.... she looked okay. Except for her throat. It was still swollen, and red. But he had had an ice pack on there for nearly fifteen minutes... ! "Did-you lose your voice or something ?" Mamoru asked shakily, fearing the worst. Sailormoon nodded slowly, touching her throat. She winced, even though it was a light touch. Mamoru rushed over to her side, and told her to open her mouth so he could see what happened. Maybe... maybe it was just sore. He could only hope... 'WHY ?! Why wasn't I there for her ? Why didn't I feel her transform ? Or feel her in danger !' Mamoru screamed at himself. Sailormoon's throat was normal colored... but at the ends, it wasn't swollen, as he had expected, but dark. A charred black. BURNT. "Oh kami-sama..." Mamoru murmured. It was then that the door banged loudly, and Sailormars' voice yelled out for him to open the door in the name of Mars. "Sailor senshi." Mamoru greeted monotonously as he opened the door. Gasps were emitted as Sailormercury rushed in to Sailormoon's side. "Did you *know* we were coming ?" Sailorvenus questioned suspiciously. "Dear god..." Sailormercury mumbled before Mamoru could answer. "C-can I talk to you all ?" Mercury asked, stepping away from Sailormoon's side and up to the group surrounding Mamoru with not-good intent written in their eyes. "Yeah." Jupiter answered, glaring at Mamoru. He gulped visibly, and then slid from the circle to comfort Sailormoon. "Senshi... Mamoru, you should hear this too..." Mercury said, edging into the kitchenette. Not caring that Sailormoon could still HEAR, Sailormars burst out, enraged. "WHY SHOULD HE !? He wasn't there to save her from this...*thing*, and even if he's here now, she's still.... and...YOU LOST YOUR PRIVLEGE AS HER GUARDIAN WHEN YOU BROKE UP WITH HER !!!!!" Sailormercury, Sailormoon, and Mamoru were staring at her, shocked. Sailormars was glaring at him firecely, eternally protective of her princess and friend. "Rei-san..." Mamoru started, nearly bent on telling the over-protective, firey priestess of the horrible dreams. He stopped himself in time when he saw Sailormoon's sad face. She looked from him to the senshi, motioning him to go. He stood, reluctantly, and joined the girls in his kitchen. He tried to ignore the evil stares from Venus, Mars and Jupiter... he almost swore he saw Jupiter playing with lightining between her forefinger and thumb. "Usagi-chan hasn't just lost her voice..." Mercury started, staring at the blank computer screen. "She can't speak ?" Venus interrupted, looking from Mercury, to Mamoru to Sailormoon. "She has no vocal cords." Mercury finished. Mamoru stared at Mercury, agape. "W-What does that mean ?" Venus asked shakily. "It means..." Mercury started sadly. "It means that if we had been there..." Jupiter started, depression reigning over her. "That she'd still be able to talk." Mars finished angrily. "Usako..." Mamoru mumbled. "How *DARE* you !" Sailormars spat. She powered down and rushed over to Sailormoon, leaving everyone else in the kitchen. Sailorvenus ran off to the bathroom, while Jupiter wandered out to the living room and collapsed, eyes wide, on the chair across from where Sailormoon half-lay and half-sat. "Mamoru-san, this may be abrupt, if your feelings are still..." "I love her, Ami-chan, never doubt that." Mamoru interrupted, not even looking at her. "I see. In any case, there is no way for her to transform, or rather...de-transform, and this also means she can't attack. There is no way she can go home and somehow 'explain' all this to her parents... not having vocal cords would be too apparent to any other doctor, and then.... well, the secret would be out." Mercury finished, hoping he understood. "In other words, if we want all our identites to be kept secret, she can't go home. What do we tell her parents ?" Mamoru asked, still looking at Sailormoon, who was now sleeping, while Rei cleaned off her face. "I don't know... I really don't know..." Mercury murmured. She walked out of the kitchen and onto the balcony. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The remainder of the night was spent with Ami, Mina and Rei calling their guardians and telling them that they were spending the night over at a friend's, while Rei called Usagi's parents and explained they were spending the weekend at a cabin in the mountains. "So sue me ! It was the best explanation I could think of !" Rei retorted. Mamoru, meanwhile, spent his sleepless night at Usagi's side, stroking her face while she slept. "I'm so sorry..." He murmured, sqeezing his eyes shut. If he opened them, he'd see her faint scratches, her dim bruises, and her throat, swollen. He'd imagine the inside, burnt and charred, devoid of the vocal cords that made her the sweet, angelic girl she was. But...this wouldn't change anything would it ? What if this was permanent ? He would still love her, wouldn't he ? 'Of course !' Part of Mamoru screamed silently. 'Can you love her ? The dreams...the danger ?' But he opened his eyes, and saw that whatever danger she had been in had taken its toll. But still...would she still try to protect him, as she had before ? And the next time, would it cost her her life ? Not wanting to think, he picked her up and carried her to the bedroom, lying her under the mounds of blankets. Rei had already taken the smaller couch in the living room, Makoto took the floor, while Ami and Mina both took the recliners. 'If you leave her alone, something might happen to her. She can't do anything: she's nearly immobile and can't talk at all.' Mamoru thought to himself. Without a second thought, he climbed into the bed next to her, stroking her face with his hand, lulling himself to sleep. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Serenity, you must protect him." No voice came from Princess Serenity's throat, though she tried. "It will be hard, but if your love for each other is strong and true, you will overcome this hardship." Serenity nodded to the shadowed figure, recognizing the voice as her mother's. Queen Serenity's, that is. "I'm sorry this had to happen. But in the end... it will be for the best." Queen Serenity said. With that, a white light enveloped Serenity, and she awoke with a start. She would have been hyperventilating, but even her breathing was silent. However, Mamoru's eyes flew open, staring intensely at her. He knew questions could not be answered, so upon seeing her tears, he simply kissed them away. "It will be all right, Usako, you'll see..." Mamoru comforted. Her eyes filled with questions, he held her in his embrace. They spent the night like that, Mamoru wiping away her tears, ignoring the questions he knew she had, and that he could answer, while Sailormoon wondered all the while what she could do anymore. 'I feel so useless...' Sailormoon thought to herself. She recieved a 'look' from Mamoru, but settled back into his embrace, and into sleep again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "How kawaii." Mina remaked upon seeing the two wrapped in each others arms. The door was left...ajar... and Minako had the "task" of asking Mamoru if she could chomp on his food. He had quite a stock... Makoto wanted to make breakfast, but still... she needed permission. "What ?" Rei asked, rubbing her eyes as she came towards the door. She walked in and saw Mamoru and Sailormoon, her boots, tiara and choker tossed carelessly on the floor, wrapped in each other's arms, facing the door. Mamoru held her in his embrace and her own arms were tangled with his. They both looked so peaceful... "Forget it ! I'm just making breakfast !" Makoto yelled from the kitchen. Rei and Mina smiled and shut the door most of the way, while Makoto attacked Mamoru's kitchen and made breakfast for the six of them. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sailormoon awoke to a deep smell... like French Toast...and eggs ? She sniffed lightly, shifting her arms. She looked down at herself. Her bruises were all but gone, but they were smaller and...less ugly. Her front bow was still ripped, but now rumpled... a pair of strong arms wrapped around her, directly beneath her. Her skirt was hiked up to her mid-thigh, for she had bent her knees in sleep and was in a Z-like position, with Mamoru holding her in a mimicry of the form she was in. She smiled, seeing him holding her. She unwound herself from his arms, and heard him moan unhappily. Smiling more, she faced him, her own back to the door, and brushed the ebony hairs that fell in his eye back up to his forehead. They fell over and over again, so she kept on brushing it up with her small fingernails. "Umm...Usako ?" Mamoru mumbled. He opened his midnight blue eyes reluctantly, letting the white-gold light surrounding him adjust to his eyes. When his vision cleared, Sailormoon was curled up beside him, fingering his hair. He brought his hands from around her waist and grasped her wrist lightly. He brought it down to his lips and kissed each finger delicately. Sailormoon blushed a rosy hue, and then kissed him deeply on the mouth. Her eyes told him that she had missed him beyond the passion she had shown in that momentary kiss, but the smell of breakfast was *too* enticing... Sailormoon unwound herself from his arms, and standing, she straightened her skirt and stood. Mamoru followed suit, rising from the bed. They walked from the room, hand in hand, to the kitchen. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Usagi-chan !" Minako exclaimed upon site of the girl. She inspected her, head to toe and smiled. "You look better !" She finally said, prompting looks from Rei and Ami. Sailormoon looked at Minako sadly, motioning to her throat. Mina gave her a sympathetic look. "I'm sorry, Usagi-chan...I don't know... I'm so sorry I wasn't there !" Mina cried sadly, hugging Sailormoon's shoulders. Sailormoon patted her on the head, and upon Minako's questioning gaze, Sailormoon smiled. "It's only Saturday, but the question is, how do we get Usagi's voice back ?" Makoto voiced from the kitchen, bringing out six plates of breakfast. Sailormoon eyed it hungrily, and sat down at the table. There was one too few chairs.... "It's okay, I'll stand." Mamoru said, standing. He was neat-freak, as Rei had so graciously put it. And he would NOT eat on his couch, bed or recliners. Sailormoon gave Mamoru an angry-pouting look, and pulled him into the chair she had just occupied. She stood, unmooving, and holding her plate stock still for a moment, before she plopped down on Mamoru's lap, to everyone's surprise. Mamoru blushed scarlet as Sailormoon looked at him questioningly. Despite the titters and giggles from the girls, he wrapped his arm around her waist and they both ate breakfast in silence. Sailormoon's smile showed Makoto thatshe enjoyed the breakfast, but soon, the topic that arose was anything but lighthearted. "What are we going to do ? She can't stay at her own home, voiceless and in Sailormoon form." "Yeah, my Grandpa would find out." Rei said sadly. "And my mom." Mina and Ami said at the same time. "I can't even HAVE guests !" Makoto said, eyeing the looks she got from everyone else. "So..." Ami trailed off, looking at Mamoru. "She'll have..." Rei continued. " to stay..." Mina glanced at Mamoru, who was now looking wide-eyed at the girls. "Here." Mamoru finished. Sailormoon pouted at his look, a mix between fear, happiness and...disappointment. Why would he be disappointed.... ? Sailormoon leaned in and kissed Mamoru on the cheek. He flushed again, and released his arm from around her waist. He stood, nearly knocking her to the floor. He smiled, nodded wordlessly and put the pile of plates in his sink. This was going to be some adventure... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Two words: E-MAIL. Maybe it's one word, but I need feedback ! I have other fics at my site: www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Gulf/8524/fanfic.html. Tell me what you think, okay ? My AOL instant messenger name is Meriellen5, my email is sailor_andromida@yahoo.com, and You can call me Azurite or Andi-chan, short for Andromida.