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	Usagi is so very alone within herself, 
so silent and lost.  The light inside her, 
the light that gave us all hope is dying, 
even as I watch and there is nothing I can 
do about it.  She and Mamoru-san were one 
soul in two bodies.  Now half of her is gone 
forever and she is wounded; perhaps fatally.

	Kami-sama, guide me.  How do I help my 
Princess?  I will always be at her side to 
protect her.  But will that be enough?

                                   -Michiru.

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Don't Let Me Go: Dreams
Chapter: 4 of Insanity
By: Bethany
Edited by: Meara
Rated: Pg? yeah, whatevea
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	Clutching a rose scented pillow to her 
chest, Usagi tossed and turned in her sleep. 
Every now and again her voice would break and 
she would call for Mamoru. 

	Luna watched her ward worriedly. "Poor 
Usagi-chan... I wish I could help you."

	Finally the tossing stopped and Usagi 
cuddled deeper into the warmth of Mamoru's bed.

~*~ Dreams ~*~

	A rose was laid before her, and Usagi 
looked up at a pair of deep blue eyes. "Mamo-chan? 
What are you doing here?" The day had been ended 
wonderfully when Haruna-sensi had gave Usagi 
detention for being late to class. Usagi wanted 
to argue that it wasn't her fault that Mamoru 
had kept her "occupied." But she knew better and 
took her punishment with sagging shoulders.

	"I had a little chat with your teacher, and 
assured her it was not your fault you were late. 
Now, would you like to come with me?"

	The day was Valentine's Day - a beautiful, 
chilly day that had delivered her a beautiful bouquet 
of roses; sent right to the school from Mamoru. She 
slipped one hand around the vase of roses and 
clutched her school bag in her other. "Gladly."

	After stopping to leave her roses and bag in his 
car, the couple walked through the park hand in hand. 
"Usako, we need to talk."

	The blonde dithered and became uncomfortable with 
the seriousness in her boyfriend's voice. "What is 
it Mamo-chan?" she asked uneasily.

	He remained silent and sat down on a bench. 
Suddenly, with no warning at all, he pulled her down 
into his lap and wrapped his arms tightly around her 
waist. Mamoru wasn't normally a man who liked to show 
affection in public, so this was a huge surprise to the 
bunny on his lap. "What are you up to?" she joked, an 
eyebrow raising up.

	"Nothing," he shrugged, trying to ease the tension 
out of her body. "Just wanted to hold you, is that so bad?"

	Still looking quiet perplexed about his sudden 
change in attitude, Usagi smiled briefly. "No, not bad... 
just strange."

	"Now your saying I'm strange?"

	"No!" She yelped as he brought her closer and kissed 
her cheek gently. "Now I KNOW your up to something."

	"Usako, we do need to talk."

	Almost satisfied that he wasn't going to dump her, 
Usagi laid her head on his shoulder. "What do we need to 
talk about?"

	"You remember the essay I sent in a couple of months 
ago, to that college in America?"

	Usagi knitted her eyebrows together. "Hai, I remember," 
she answered after a few moments.

	"Well, I got a letter back from them today. I was 
accepted," He said it so quietly that if Usagi hadn't 
been so close to his mouth, she wouldn't have heard it 
at all.

	"You've been accepted? You're going to school at 
Harvard?" she asked, her voice rising with each word. "My 
boyfriend is going to go to college at one of the best 
schools in the world?! I'm so happy for you!" she squealed, 
wrapping her slender arms around his neck.

	Mamoru smiled sadly at her and returned the hug. "Yeah, 
it's great. What I've always wanted."

	Noting the sadness in his voice, the small girl 
looked him in the eyes. "What? What's wrong?"

	"I'll be leaving soon, Usako. For two years."

	The smile on her lips almost faded before she caught 
herself.  "But that's what you've always wanted to do, you 
should go. Don't.. don't worry about me. I'll always be 
here, waiting for you."

	A single tear got past her defenses and she 
rubbed it away harshly, angry at herself for letting 
Mamoru see it. "Usako, I promise, this will be the 
last time I leave you alone. After I get that degree 
we can be together forever."

	"Forever..." she mouthed automatically. 

	"I'll be able to be a doctor, and make a good 
life for you...for us," he continued, rocking slightly 
back and forth. "I want to take care of you."

	Usagi cuddled up deeper into the notch of 
Mamoru's neck and placed a kiss there. "You'll be 
back, I know you will."

	"Hai, and when I come back I'll bring you a dozen 
of every color rose. One each day until you have so many 
roses that you will drown in them," he said lightly, 
chuckling at the thought.

	"But you only make red roses, ne?"

	"Don't worry Usako, you'll get all your 
heart's ever desired."

	"All it desires is you," she said softly, 
leaning up so she could peer into his eyes. "And 
some ice cream."

	He laughed joyously at her and kissed her 
forehead. "Then let's go see if we can get you that 
ice cream." Taking her hand, they walked back to 
the Crown Cafe.

~*~ End Dream ~*~

	Usagi tossed once more and threw her arm 
over the edge of the bed. "Oh Mamo-chan, all I 
ever wanted was you."

	Luna fixed her eyes on the ring adorning Usagi's 
left finger. "I wish you could have him, Usagi-chan. 
Kami, but I wish you could."

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