AN: Hi minna-chan! I'm kinda depressed so I decided to write a short story,
but it's really
sad. Well tell me what you think.
Rated: PG(some violence and mild language)
Mail welcomed at: AllyM25@aol.com or LilyHeavin@gurlmail.com
Note: I don't own SM, so don't sue me.

Now on with the story!

                                                   All My Fault

        A ditz, a helpless girl, a crybaby. All those harsh words echo
aimlessly in
my mind. But they all describe me perfectly; they should have been engraved
on
my forehead to let people know to beware of me. I am a frightening monster.
        "Usagi-chan, you are such a crybaby! Why can't you just stop whining
about
God knows what and get serious! You are Sailor Moon for crying out loud and
when we needed you the most, you weren't there! You were to busy
complaining!"
Rei remarked yesterday recurring the encounter with a life-taking youma.
Does
she not know that I figured out that already? People say the most severe
things in life. I can't help it that I whimper sometimes. I can't help it
that
it ruined one of my best friend's life...
        "Why are you so incapable of doing things? You can't even past a
quiz Usagi,
much less protect the people you are suppose to love!" cried out Ami after I
showed her my latest score on a pop quiz the other day. If I would have
known
that was how she would have behave I wouldn't of let her seen it. Funny how
you think you just figured out someone out and they change in a blink of the
eye. Ami, you were always such a caring person. What happened? But the main
question is: Who could blame you for saying the truth?
        Makoto looked down at me with her usually soft green eyes full of
hatred.
"Usagi!
Look at what you did! You ditz out for a second and look at the
consequences!
I'm so
disappointed in you..." she hissed at me. I'm so sorry Makoto.. I'm sorry to
have let
everybody down.. This is all my fault.. All my fault Aino Minako will never
breathe
another breath on Earth again...
        It all started three days ago when we where having a usually fight
with a
common
youma, but it wasn't the youma who destroyed Minako, it was me. I was to
busy
complaining how I would like to spend my time with Mamo-chan and Minako
turned
to me and said, "Come on girl. You can see him after we kick this damn
thing's
butt! How 'bout it?" She was buisy cheering me up when the youma tore its
claws straight through her. I saw it all coming but didn't say a word.
Paralyzed with fear because I'm a whimp. Clawing all the way, Mina-chan was
slashed in half. Her always carefree, sky blue eyes turned dull as I saw her
spliced body hit the ground with a thud. The worst part of it all was the
look
she gave me.. That look that has etched its way into my mind and never left.
A
look of pure regret.
        And from then on, everybody blamed me. Saying things about how I'm
so weak,
such a useless being. Everybody changed since that fight and it's all my
fault. Why couldn't it have killed me? Why can't Mina be alive as I speak?
        It all got worse this afternoon. Mamo-chan found out the whole story
from Rei
and he started to freak. "Usagi," he didn't bother to say Usako or even Usa.
"how could you do that? How could you complain about not being with me and
let
Minako-san die like that? You are with me so much time you start to bug the
hell out of me! God damn it Usagi, why can't you just grow up and act your
age? Why can't you be the person your mother was! You make me sick you
heartless bitch. You let Minako die. It's all your fault and I never want to
see you again. Get out of my sight now." That was all it took to bring me
over
the edge.
        The cliff was not to far from where my only love tore my heart out
of my body
and
stomped on it. I closed my eyes and felt the wind blow through my hair. Such
a
peaceful wind, so peaceful... That's all I wanted: peace. I could feel the
tears roll down my cheeks as I thought about the future... Minako was
suppose
to be there, but since you can't control the future I ruined her chance at
that happy picture. And then my thoughts shifted to my future daughter,
Chibi-
usa. She would never want a mother who was a murderer. I know she would just
hate me. Another word that started to swim in the pool with the other ones.
"She would hate you just like everybody else does." my mind told me. And it
was right. All this was my fault, but soon everybody's worries will be gone
because I won't be here anymore. Their anger will vanish with the next gust
of
wind.
        I take one sorrowful glance back and then count in my mind, "One,
two,
-goodbye everybody - three!" And I jump. I could see the waves crashing up
against the surface and realized something: no one was here... Nobody
cared...
It was all true because this was all my fault..... I guess life doesn't go
on
after such a tragic event... There were only three words on my mind as I hit
the rocky edge, "All my fault."

~Fin~

Catch ya later!
LuV,
Allison /\_~

"God Bless All."