Title: True Feelings ? Part 2 (revised) Author: Alicia Blade E-mail: Kammi22@sprintmail.com Rated: G Hi minna-chan! This is a continuation of a short story I wrote a LONG time ago. I wasn?t really planning on doing anymore, but OdangoMoon encouraged me to write more on it, so here ya go! Remember: Chibi-Usa?s Bedtime Stories: http://www.50megs.com/sailorm/fanfic.htm and First Luv is MOVING to: http://members.xoom.com/firstluv True Feelings ? Part 2 It was a sunny day in Tokyo, with the warm sunrays beating down on my back. I skipped happily down the crowded street, carrying my school bag in one hand, my leftover lunch in the other. I was excitedly awaiting my arrival at the arcade. Going there was my favorite? pastime, if you will. I get to go and see my friends, eat some ice cream, play some games? I?m just hoping I won?t run into Chiba Mamoru. The dreaded baka. Um? ahem? okay, okay, you?ve seen through my lies. Actually I?m hoping I WILL run into him, but that can just be our little secret. Why do I want to see him? Well, who wouldn?t? For one, he?s drop dead gorgeous (in a masculine, sexy kind of way, of course) and two? well, he?s Mamo-chan. To ME, he?s Mamo-chan. Not anyone else, though I wish I could call him that, without him laughing at me? But it could never happen. Gee, I seem to be repeating every conversation I?ve ever had in my head about the guy. I sound like a broken record. But, I know that he?ll probably be at the arcade too, chatting away with my former crush, Motoki. So, here?s the game plan. I run in, and he?ll call me Odanga Atama, like usual. I?ll yell at him, pretending I?m mad, where in reality my stomach is doing happy little flips, then I?ll go play some Sailor V games for the rest of the afternoon. Sigh? I have this down to a science. It?s starting to get old though, the name-calling, the bickering. Lately, I?ve been wanting something more. As much as I LOVE the given nickname, I desire, just once, for him to call me something more like?Usako. Yeah, Usako. I came up with that pet-name for myself a long time ago. Technically, it means My Little Rabbit. Wouldn?t that be sweet? So, these are my most wonderful, and common, fantasies. That he will sweep me into those strong arms and whisper the name ?Usako? so gently into my ear with his deep, melodious voice, and he will refuse to let me go? And hold onto me forever and ever and? YEAH RIGHT! Like it?ll ever happen Usagi! I know he doesn?t feel that way about me! It is so obvious he can?t bear to be near me! He probably thinks I am the most stupid, obnoxious kid in this whole blasted city! Oh, if only I could somehow get him to see how I feel about him, ya know, without actually having to TELL him. Hmm?maybe someday? Oh! There?s the arcade! I?m sitting here talking to my best friend since I was a kid, Motoki. He?s going on and on about how Reika did this, and Reika did that? The silly love-struck fool. Funny how he almost makes me feel jealous of what he has with Reika, and what I want with? a certain girl who should BE here by now! Sigh? Motoki, I actually feel like I might be using the poor guy. Sure I like his company, and definitely value his friendship, but that is most certainly NOT why I have come here every day? at the same time? for the last 3 weeks. And why I look forward to it. I come here to see Usako? er? I mean, Odango. More commonly referred to as Odanga Atama. You know, I should really lay off that nickname. I know she hates it when I call her that, and it is NOT on my list of priorities to have her hate me. Actually, the opposite. What I wouldn?t give to take her out on a date. To the movies, or dinner, or even a walk in the park. But, like she?d ever say yes! Yeah, in my dreams! Still, it wouldn?t hurt to be a little nicer to her? maybe? oh, why do I bother? I could be a perfect gentleman every day for the next two years and it would never make up for how mean I?ve been to her. I don?t deserve her. To be near her, talk to her, I really don?t deserve to tease her! Actually, I do sorta look at it like a privilege. I mean, I get to see her gorgeous face get all flushed and angry, then she blushes when she notices how closely I?m watching her, simply adding to her adorable features. But then, she always turns and walks away, leaving me wanting so much more. I wonder what would happen if I was nice to her? just once? If I could bring myself to ever reveal to her what I really think when I see her shining blue eyes, her smiling pink lips? I sigh and look out to the door. Any second now, she?ll come in, ready to fill my day with a light I couldn?t possible imagine without her. Ha! Never fails! Here she comes! I see him sitting at the counter chatting with Motoki, as usual. Told you we had a known schedule for this! Taking a deep breath, I attempt to calm the whirling in my stomach. Just from looking at him! He is so perfect! His strong jaw, mysterious blue eyes, jet black hair falling down over his face. My hand starts itching to brush it back. I clench my fist to calm the urge, my fingernails digging into my palms? After a moment I realize it?s not working and unclench my fists to release the pain. Ooh, that hurt? Looking at my hand, I can see the white imprints from my nails. Chewing on my lip, I once again look up to see? Wha?? He? he?s looking at me! Smiling nonetheless! I love his smile? Is he getting up? And coming over here? Probably just to tease me, of course, but who cares? That?s all I really desire right now? I tell Motoki I have something to do and excuse myself, walking casually over to the girl who has just entered. My mind is debating two things. Either A: Tease her relentlessly and take joy in seeing her mad little face, or B: be nice to her and take the chance of her thinking you?re a complete freak. I choose A. Never failed before? And besides, I can wait to hold her and kiss her and call her my Usako. I?m in no rush? ?Hey there, Odanga Atama! Fail another test today?? I am instantly rewarded by a flushed face and two beautiful blue eyes glaring up at me. Then, I get a peculiar feeling in my knees. I have the temptation to sweep her into my arms and kiss her with so much passion and love it she wouldn?t be able to walk straight. Oh, I have to get out of here before I do something extremely drastic. Without saying good bye, I begin heading past her to the doors. Oh no! He?s leaving! NO, no, don?t go, Mamo-chan! Don?t go! Tease me some more, mock me, make fun of me, just don?t go! Quick, say something! Like what? ANYTHING! ?Oooohhh!!! Why are you always so mean to me, Mamo-chan?!? Silence. He?s stops, his hand reaching for the door. What did I just do? How could I have been so stupid as to call him? Oh no, what do I do now? Oh no! Oh no! Oh no! ??Mamo-chan?!? I freeze. What the? I turn to face her shocked face. She is staring at me, her eyes and mouth wide open. ?Wha?what did you call me?? I ask uncertainly. Maybe I was just hearing things. Oh, goodness, I hope that?s not it! She closes her mouth and gulps. ?Ma?Mamoru-san?? Please let him buy it! Please! I can?t have him thinking I?m just some stupid teenager. I can?t! No, no, no, why is this happening to me?! Just when everything was going according to schedule, why did I have to go and call him Mamo-chan, of all thing? Couldn?t I have just stuck to Mamoru-baka?! He doesn?t look satisfied with my answer. Just go! Leave! Wait a minute? I thought I didn?t want him to leave? Well, our situation has changed! Just get out of here and imagine this never happened! What are you waiting for! Leave you baka! ?Mamoru? san?? he asks, raising an eyebrow. I nod. ?Uh?I have to go now?Mamoru-san?? I start walking toward the exit. Just let me out of here? She?s leaving! Oh, no you don?t Usako! You aren?t getting away with that! You will NOT call me ?Mamo-chan? and then just leave! I won?t let you! I have waited far too long hoping you felt something for me, and I am going to find out if you do or not! ?Where ya going, Odanga Atama? You just got here!? She keeps walking. She didn?t even flinch at the hated nickname! Have to get her to stay. Have to! I keep walking. Please, Mamo-chan, just let me leave! I know you hate me now and think I?m some stupid naļ¶„ kid who has a crush on you, so just let me go! Don?t torture me like this, please! She?s still walking! No, stop! I gently grab her by her arm, and turn her to face me. Her eyes are slowly filling up with tears. Huh? Did I make her cry? Don?t cry Usako? ?What?s wrong?? I whisper. She looks up at me confused. ?N?nothing. I just have things to do?? ?But you just got here, Odanga Atama!? I crack my quirky little smile that a girl once told me was to die for. Please, just don?t leave! Don?t leave me! I?ll be nice, I?ll be good, I?ll forget about what you called me? well, probably not? but I?ll pretend! No! Don?t do that! Don?t you DARE smile at me like that! He is. He?s smiling at me like that. The smile to die for. I couldn?t possibly leave now. I can?t even think anymore? He is so? Maybe if I stay awhile, he?ll forget all about ?Mamo-chan.? I stare up into his dreamy eyes for what feels like eternity. Oh, I could lose myself in those eyes! I think I just did? That could be a problem? Oh, please, if anyone can hear this prayer, just let time stop, just for a minute, so I can stay here, looking at him like this?please? For a minute, all time seems to stop. I haven?t let go of her arm, for fear that she would leave. I am staring down at her cool blue eyes now. They are so beautiful, so heavenly. I am lost in them for a moment. The arcade dissolves away to a world where it is only me and Usako... My heart doesn?t know whether it should stand still or beat furiously, so it doesn?t do either. In a way, this seems normal, familiar, perfect? ?Usako?? I whisper. The word is out before I can catch it. And time starts again. Oh gosh! What have I done? She?ll think I?m definitely insane now! I called her My Little Rabbit! What was I thinking!? Mamoru, you baka! I snap back to reality as I feel my dreams beginning to come true. Did I just hear him call me? Of course, you baka! This isn?t real! It?s nothing more than another one of your stupid fantasies! Duh! This one just happens to be much more realistic! Oh well, can?t let a perfectly good daydream pass you by! In an instant, I do what I have done in ever other one of my daydreams. I throw both arms around his neck and pull his lips to mine. Then? I realize something of strong importance. I?M ACTUALLY KISSING SOMETHING! It?s real! It isn?t in my head! I open my eyes to see Mamoru kissing me back. His eyes are closed and his bangs are falling over his face and lightly tickling my forehead. Trying to hold back a giggle, I lightly brush the hair aside, just like I always dreamed, and it is even silkier in real life. I don?t know what?s going on, but I like it! She is kissing me! She is ACTUALLY KISSING ME! She did it, not me! She wanted it! And now? here she is! Kissing me! I wrap my arms around her slim waist and pull her closer to me. I feel her small hand brush back some of my hair, and try not to smile. It feels so perfect. How she fits in my arms. How her lips taste so sweet? The world faded away as I held her safely, tightly in my arms. Luv and God bless! <3 Alicia