Title: True Feelings ? Part 3
Author: Alicia Blade
E-mail: Kammi22@sprintmail.com

Now, did any of you who had read over the first 2 parts beforehand just 
skip to this part? That was BAD! At least go read the end of part 2, 
?cause I took quite a bit out, and this wouldn?t make much sense with 
the ways things were before the revisions. Please???? Oh, and so you 
know, this part was ALL Jade (ChibiChibi_Moon)?s fault. Blame her! Or 
praise her? tee hee, just kiddin?? Now then, if you haven?t already, go 
to: 

Chibi-Usa?s Bedtime Stories at: 

http://www.50megs.com/sailorm/fanfic.htm 

and

Lady S?s and mine fanfic site, First Love at:

http://members.xoom.com/firstluv

?When the time cane for Jesus and the apostles to eat, he said to them, 
?I have very much wanted to eat this Passover meal with you before I 
suffer. I tell you that I will not eat another Passover meal until it 
is finally eaten in God?s kingdom.??
								Luke 22:14-16


True Feelings - Part 3

	I could feel my jaw hit the ground. What was THIS? Mamoru? 
kissing? Usagi? No, Usagi was kissing Mamoru. They were both clinging 
to each other like there was no tomorrow, lip-locked, tongue-tied, 
okay, Motoki, you?re getting too interested in this. 
	Gulping, I stand from the stool I had been sitting on while I 
talked to my best friend a moment ago. After he?d left, I had begun to 
read the daily newspaper and when I looked up again, well, there they 
were, standing a foot apart from each other. And two seconds later, 
Usagi was wrapping her arms around his neck and? Well, we all know the 
rest. 
	I walk over to the couple ignorant of my presence, as well as the 
ground beneath their feet, probably that they?re even still on Earth. 
Raising my eyebrow, I walk around them speculatively. I have to be 
seeing things. Maybe? maybe it?s a hologram? Or am I losing my mind? 
	?Hello??
	I receive no response, though Usagi does sigh rather loudly. 
Clearing my throat, I reach out and tap Mamoru on the shoulder. 
	?Um? guys? Mamoru-san? Usagi-chan? Hello-oooooo, Earth to the 
lovebirds!? After another minute, I cup my hands over my mouth. ?Would 
the couple in aisle six please get a room?!? They don?t stir, but 
continue ravishing each other?s lips. ?Step away from the Odango Atama. 
Warning, step away from the girl!? Nada. Okay, enough is enough. 
?Alright you two, break it UP!? I scream. Grabbing onto Mamoru?s 
collar, I pull him away from Usagi roughly. They each moan as they?re 
pulled unwillingly apart and their eyes spring open. 
	They stare at each other in shock for a moment and I fold my arms 
over my chest in patience. I watch them both gasping for air, their 
eyes becoming softer as they stare at each other. 
	?Are you two quite finished? Because I would LIKE to know what?s 
going on. I mean, maybe I?m stuck in the twilight zone or something? 
No, I got it! I?m on Candid Camera, aren?t I?!? Convinced, I start 
looking around, turning my head from side to side, just waiting to hear 
a voice start singing,
	?Smile! You?re on Candid Camera!?
	Giving up with a sigh, I turn back to my two flushed friends. 
They stare at me in silence for a minute, their mouths hanging open, 
and then in the flash of an eye, they have broken off all contact, now 
standing five feet away from each other. 
	?Uh?? stutters Mamoru, running a hand through his hair. Usagi 
only blushes bright red, looking down at the tile floor. I anxiously 
wait for an explanation of any sort, eager to know what just happened 
between two of my best friends, who I THOUGHT were sworn enemies up to 
two minutes ago. 
	After a very long moment of silence, Mamoru looks up at me, then 
slowly, very slowly, turns to Usagi. She seems to feel his eyes on hers 
and gulps, sloooooowly raising her eyes to his. She purses her lips 
together for a moment, before sighing and turning away again. 
	?Um? I think? I think maybe we need to talk?? says Mamoru to her, 
before glaring up at me, ?in PRIVATE.?
	Agitatedly, I roll my eyes. ?Aw, come on, I want all the details. 
When did you become an item? What happened to make you change your 
minds? What?s going on??

	I place my hands on my hips as Motoki continues to spill out 
question after question. How are we supposed to answer these when we 
don?t have the slightest idea of what?s going on? Looking over at 
Usagi, I can still see the blush tinting her cheeks bright red, and I 
wonder how she can always be so adorable. My eyes focus on her lips and 
a shudder runs through my nerves, aching to feel them, to taste them, 
to press my lips against them again. 
	?Motoki!? I yell, ceasing his stuttering. Sighing, I tilt my head 
to the side, staring hard at him. ?I really think we need to talk in 
private NOW. Do you think it would be alright if we used the back 
room?!? I practically growl. 
	He stares at me for a moment, before nodding in surrender. ?Yeah? 
I guess so? but you?d better tell me everything afterward, okay?!?
	He turns on his heels and begins heading back to the counter of 
the arcade. I start to follow, but then stop and look back at Usako. 
Usako? Had she really called me Mamo-chan a minute ago, or was I just 
dreaming it?
	?You coming??
	Her eyes make their way to mine and for a minute she only stares. 
But then she nods and with a sigh, begins following after Motoki, me 
right behind her. I have an incredible urge to wrap my arm around her 
waist but refrain. Motoki opens the door to the back for us and we walk 
in. I know as the door closes that his ear is pressing up against it, 
trying to listen in on our conversation, but right now, I don?t mind. 
I?m focused on the girl with her back turned to me. I need to know what 
just happened. I need to know if? if she?s really Usako. 

	I hear the door close behind us and my shoulders fall. Here it 
comes. I try to live out one of my dreams, and I get stuck in a dark, 
dingy room with the man of my dreams. Wait a minute? I?m stuck in a 
dark, dingy room with the man of my dreams!! 
	It?s a shame he probably thinks I?m the most idiotic, naﶥ, 
ditzy teenager in the history of the Earth right now.
	After a long silence, I hear him stepping softly closer to me, 
and he lays a hand lightly on my shoulder. I inhale sharply, before 
turning around to look up at him. I can feel tears stinging in my eyes 
and gulp loudly. He stares at me, before his hand drops down to his 
side. 
	?Mamoru-san, I? I?m sorry,? I whisper.
	
	What? Mamoru-san? No? no Mamo-chan? 
	?Wha???
	?I?m sorry, I just? It was a mistake. I got carried away and? I 
thought it was a dream! Honest, I thought you were just a figment of my 
imagination. You? you were standing so close and? something just came 
over me? Mamoru-san, I?m sorry. It won?t happen again, okay? Let?s just 
forget it ever happened!? 
	She inhales sharply, her eyes never coming in contact with mine 
as I stare down on her, and then she begins walking shakily toward the 
door.
	?I?m afraid I can?t do that,? I whisper just loud enough that I
know she heard me. I hear her footsteps freeze. Turning, I see that she 
is standing about a foot away from the door, facing the wall.
	?Sure you can. I? I don?t want you to hate me. I don?t want 
anything to change. We?ll go back to fighting and teasing? no one will 
ever know about this. We?ll make up a story for Motoki-san, tell him we 
were just trying to get a reaction out of him or something, we? don?t 
have to let anything change?? I can hear the sobs and tears choking her 
voice as she struggles to get out the words. Her forehead falls onto 
the frame of the door with a thud and I know that she?s crying. 
	Shocked, I walk over to her, pain from seeing Usako cry filling 
my heart. I wrap my arms around her waist, hugging her closely. With 
every whimper, every sob, I hold her closer, running a hand through her 
hair. Finally, she turns in my embrace, wrapping her arms around my 
neck, and buries her head in my jacket. 
	?I don?t want anything to change,? I hear her whisper. ?I don?t 
want to lose whatever it is we have.?
	?I don?t want to lose anything either, but? I want more, Usako. 
Maybe? maybe what happened out there didn?t mean anything to you, but 
it meant something to me. Usako, when you called me Mamo-chan, my heart 
stopped. For so long, I have ached to hear you call me something other 
than baka, other than Mamoru-san, to hear you call me something with 
love in your voice, and when?? I paused, taking a moment to breathe in, 
and smell the scent of her hair as well. 

I can?t believe what I?m hearing. Is he saying? that it wasn?t a 
mistake? That he wanted it as much as I did?? 
?When we were out there, and you were standing so close to me, 
all I wanted to do was take you into my arms and kiss you. It?s all I 
ever want to do when you?re around. And then? when you kissed me? I? I 
thought I?d died and went to heaven. Usako? if it meant nothing to you, 
I understand. I was never nice to you, and I don?t deserve to have 
anything to do with you. But, you can?t ask me to forget what happened 
out there. You can?t expect me to imagine the best thing that has ever 
happened to me in my life? didn?t actually happen. I just? can?t do 
that. If you want to, you can, but me? I?ll tell you right now that I 
am going to treasure that memory for the rest of my life. If? you never 
want to see me again, then?I understand. But I can?t go back to the way 
things used to be. Not after a kiss like that. Forgive me, Usako, but I 
simply can?t.?
	The tears freeze on my face, and I smell his cologne pooling over
me in waves. Sniffling, I pry myself away from him. His eyes are 
closed, but finally they open to look down on me and I can see 
something shimmering in their corners. He?s going to cry?
	We stare at each other a long minute, and then his arms are gone. 
He steps away from me, turning his gaze down to the floor. I gasp 
quietly, he thinks I? Oh? Mamo-chan?
	Chewing on my lower lip, I step steadily toward him. He doesn?t 
move, doesn?t flinch, doesn?t say a word. 
	?Do? do you really mean all that, Mamo-chan?? I ask, half
expecting the answer to be no. 
	His lips open slightly and he looks up at me again. His eyes 
analyze mine for a moment, and then a very small grin spreads on his 
lips. ?Back to Mamo-chan, are we?? he whispers. I make no move to 
answer, only stare at him in fear. He steps closer to me again, shakily 
moving his hands up to rest on the sides of my waist. My eyelids drift 
close. I can?t look at him for long, wanting so badly to throw myself 
at him, pull his lips to mine again. 
	I feel his forehead leaning on mine and my eyes open instantly. 
	?Yes, I do mean all that. Usako??
	
	??I want you to be mine.? I whisper, hopeful that she really does 
feel something, though I know I wouldn?t deserve that. Before she has 
the chance to answer, I continue, ?I promise to make you laugh and 
smile, and be good to you, and? and I promise to make you as happy as 
you make me.  I just don?t think I can go another day without holding 
you,? I wrap my arms tighter around her waist, ?And kissing you??
	Craning my neck, I lower my lips to hers for the second time in 
ten minutes. I kiss her gently and hear her whimper when I pull away. 
My lips tingle in desire as they separate from hers, my heart once 
again speeds up to an abnormal rate. I open my eyes to see a glazed and 
love-struck look on her face, and I know right away that that is my 
favorite expression on her. And, if given the chance, I would donate a 
lot of time making her smile like that, her lips barely turned up, her 
eyes closed lightly, a serene look of peace on her gentle features. 
	Finally, her eyes open to look up at me, blurred and elated. 
	?Yes?? she whispers quietly. ?Yes, I?ll be yours. If? if you?ll 
be my Mamo-chan,? she adds pleadingly. 
	A soft, almost unnoticeable chuckle escapes my lips and I tease 
her with a butterfly kiss on the nose. ?Of course Usako. Of course??

	I smile, leaning my back against the door. Well, this is a nice 
arrangement. At least I won?t have to play mediator between the two 
anymore. 
	Grinning, I wipe my hands on my apron and walk back to the arcade 
to give the new happy couple a little privacy. Besides, I have all the 
juicy details I need. 


Luv and God bless!
<3 Alicia