Title: Psychosis in Excelsis Author: Dark Day for Anime (Mark A Page) Email: ayanami@merlin.net.au ICQ: 9845111 IRC: Saitou^Hajime on DALnet #AJAS Fic Rating: R The characters portrayed within are the creation of Takeuchi Naoko, and are used without her permission. -------------------------------------------------------------------- Psychosis in Excelsis by DDFA This is a sequel, of sorts, to my earlier one-off story, "A Darker Shade of Pale", in which Makoto's depressive swings turn into something even nastier... -------------------------------------------------------------------- CAUTION S4 Supply without prescription illegal Keep out of reach of children ANAFRANIL 25 Clomipramine Hydrochloride Tablets 25mg 50 coated tablets It was not enough.... CAUTION S4 Supply without prescription illegal Keep out of reach of children ANAFRANIL 25 Clomipramine Hydrochloride Tablets 25mg 50 coated tablets Too weak, too few, too late.... Makoto paced the darkness of her apartment, dressed only in a soiled bathrobe, tired and agitated. It was almost 5am, and she had been doing this since Usagi had left her the previous night. Usagi had been deeply worried about her troubled friend, and with good reason.... Despite her taking of the medication that had been prescribed, Makoto's cycle of depression had returned with a vengeance, and worse.... Makoto couldn't see it, though.... She was blind to what ailed her. Most of the time. All she could plainly see was the interfering of others into her life.... She wanted, desperately to be left alone. She wanted, desperately, to be able to sleep. But all she could hear, night in, night out, were her parents' final cries of terror.... Death screams, echoing through her skull.... They were screaming now.... She could hear them as clear as day as she crossed the loungeroom floor, her hands clasped firmly over her ears.... She ran to the window and started to work the catch with a desperate edge. She pushed the frame aside as the catch clicked loose and shouted, at the top of her lungs, to the outside world.... "SHUUUUUUUUUUTUUUUUUUUUUUP!" And she promptly closed them again as dogs from all over the silent, dark district started to bark. Then she sank to the floor, exhausted and sweating profusely. The screams had gone, but she knew they would return. "You really shouldn't shout like that, you know. You'll wake up the neighbours." Minako said from across the room. Makoto turned to her. "Damn them. They don't know what it is like." "But it's so rude.... You could try the old method of shutting up the voices in your head." Said Ami from the tv screen. "I.... I hate doing that. It hurts too much." "But it worked, didn't it?" Said Rei, hanging from the loungeroom light. "People have noticed the scars.... The cuts are not healing properly." "Because you keep picking at them.... How are they expected to heal if you do that?" Minako said as she jumped over the lounge suite, leaping onto a coffee table. Makoto swallowed and closed her eyes. "Why do you guys keep following me around? Usagi is starting to get worried." "And with good reason." Ami pulled herself from out of the television and looked around the room. "You know what will happen if you tell Usagi about us." "You know what she wants from you... What she REALLY wants from you." Rei coiled down from the lightbulb, slithering to the floor in serpentine fashion. Makoto opened her eyes and stood, clenching her fists. "It's a LIE! Usagi DOESN'T want that from me.... From ANY of us...." "Are you so sure?" Rei giggled as her forked tongue tasted the air. She looked around the room, then watched Minako as the blond-haired girl performed a little dance on the coffee table. "I will not lose myself.... I am Kino Makoto.... A REAL person.... A REAL individual...." Makoto put a hand to her face. "I exist as an individual entity.... I shall not be subsumed.... mutilated, by Serenity's plan." "Oh, but you MUST." Ami rubbed her hands together as she sat on her haunches in front of the tv. "Only then shall you truly become Sailorjupiter.... Only then shall you be freed of the weakness that exists in your mind." "Only then shall you be freed of the screams." Minako tapped her feet on the coffee table, and gestured to Makoto with a little flourish. "Only then shall you be free of the screams." "Maybe she doesn't want to." Rei hissed. "Maybe she WANTS to endure the pain, the torment, forever." "Shutup!" Makoto barked. "You're deliberately trying to confuse me, again. Usagi shall do no such thing, as you say, I am already Sailorjupiter.... I can take anything that life throws at me." "Can you take this?" Ami opened her mouth, and the screams of Makoto's parents filled the room. Makoto slammed her hands over her ears, repeatedly, jumping on the spot. "Stop it! STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT!" She leapt, high into the air, and came down heavily on her left foot, which buckled underneath her. With a cry, she fell to the floor, landing on her side. The screaming sound stopped, and all three figures laughed at the fallen Makoto. "Look at her, look at her." Minako jumped down from the table, pointing at Makoto's figure. "Oh, how the mighty Sailorjupiter has fallen." Rei sat up on her elongated, serpentine tail. "The big, tall guardian of our Princess. The weakest link in the chain." Ami rolled her fingers, her elongated claws clacking against each other, her smile displaying a full set of sharpened, bestial teeth. "The bane of our lives.... Weak of spirit, weak of body and weak of mind." Minako skipped over to Makoto and kneeled beside her. "What's wrong, little girl? Why are you so quiet?" Makoto didn't answer. The figure of Minako turned to the others and shrugged. "I guess she doesn't want to talk to us any more." Rei flicked her nose with her tongue. "Perhaps we should leave her alone." "No.... Don't go...." Makoto groaned from the floor. "She speaks!" Minako cackled. "What took you so long?" "Don't go.... I don't want to be alone.... Not now...." "You hear that?" Ami clawed at the carpet. "She doesn't want to be alone." "And here I was, thinking you LIKED the idea of being alone. Oh well, too bad, never mind." Minako turned from Makoto and crawled over to the other two. "We're leaving anyway.... You may or may not hear from us, again. It depends on what you intend to do in the next few minutes." And with that, all three vanished into thin air. Makoto lay on the floor for some time, realising that her left ankle was swelling. But she didn't care. She was beyond pain, now.... With a smile on her face, she pondered Minako's final words, and came to the conclusion that it was the pinnacle of sickness to take in the wisdom of phantoms. "Mama...." She said softly. "Papa... Why did you leave me like this?" CAUTION S4 Supply without prescription illegal Keep out of reach of children ANAFRANIL 25 Clomipramine Hydrochloride Tablets 25mg 50 coated tablets Too wrong. Too right. -------------------------------------------------------------------- _________ / @ \ DDFA (The Right Dishonourable Mark A Page) / / ^ ^ \ \ ayanami@merlin.net.au /\ Chief Propoganda Officer, Keeper of \/ \/ the Tapes and Co-Founder of the Saitou-chan \___________/ Appreciation Society - Adelaide Japanese /_/ \_\ PU Animation Society Version 1.0 - Thursday, 24th September 1998