THE WAY I AM BY: darkpower RATING: Umm....R? Maybe. Judge for yourself. DISCLAIMER: Get out of here, you damned lawyer. Nothing is mine here, so fuck off already. NOTES: Pay special attention to the words in this fanfic, which is Serena's diary (excluding the prelude), and what she thinks about all of her business about her responsibilities and shit like that. I think that you will find a similarity to the way I, darkpower, am a bit. Go on, let's get to the fic. _______________________________________________ PRELUDE Scene is in an office in a high-rise building overlooking a big city, with a desk and a man behind the big office desk, three piece suit, medium build, dark-parted hair, about six foot. In walks darkpower. DARKPOWER: Hey, man, what's going on. GUY: DP, can you sit down here for a minute? DARKPOWER: Sure thing. GUY: Tracey, shut the door. TRACEY (SECETARY): Okay. [she leaves. she isn't seen, and you hear a door shut] DARKPOWER: Okay, so what's going on? GUY: It would be better if you given this site nothing at all. This fanfic sucks ass. I can't put this up onto the site. Do you know what kind of image that will send to the people visiting every day. DARKPOWER: What are you...? GUY: I mean, there are double exclamation points EVERYWHERE, you cap close to everything in your fic, you're using the dub names, and you think that people are going to actually BUY you as a good fic writer. You know why people like LeVar Bouyar and John Biles are so successful with their fics? DARKPOWER: Well, CapZMan like Biles, but....? GUY: Because they are writing about Serena and Darien...um, I mean, Usagi and Mamoru, romancing, them having Dark Kingdom troubles, and all of that. YOU, on the other hand, are writing about a kid getting excecuted by a guy who I don't even know the description of, them and the WWF getting together, and that shit. This shit isn't even worthy to be on ASMR, let alone MY site. Change them NOW, or you will no longer be a part of my company. Now, get the fuck out of my office, NOW!!!!!!!! DARKPOWER: Okay, whatever. [he leaves] END OF PRELUDE _______________________________________________ TIME OF ENTRY: July 24th, 10:54 PM Dear Diary, Is it now something that I have to do now? Be this perfect girl now that I am Saior Moon. What the hell is that all about? When did those bastards do anything for us, huh? Since when did anyone do anything to help us out with anything? NOWHERE, DAMN IT!! I have to be this perfect woman, the perfect superhero for everyone? I have to be so damn happy and proud now? I don't want to be like that. Half of the damn time, I wish that Beryl would've taken over this Godforsaken Universe. Maybe it's because then I wouldn't have to put up with the shit that these people say I should be. If it meant that I wouldn't have to hear another person say "hey, Sailor Moon, can I have your autograph," or, "You're Sailor Moon, so you can't say the words 'fuck' or 'shit' anywhere during any situation, because your such a role model for little kids," then hell, I would HELP Beryl become such a ruler. This is because I am so tired of shit like that. If I have to hear another thing about it, I'll just about scream. I'll probably strangle the person, as well. Why, you ask? Simple, because I am not the babysitter for all of these children. I'm not going to start to even try to be, either. I'm not like that. I'm just a damn superhero. I'm not the person that's going to teach morals and shit. That's the parents' job, not mind, so fuck each and every one of those people who think that they have to do that. My private life is my life, not their's. They don't have the right to come during when I'm eating, in my room, talking with my firends, or anything else that they think they have the right to intervene in. Hell, Luna is especially the type of person to do this. What right does she have to go through everything of mine. When I'm sleeping, I don't want her to suddenly wake me up for something that has to be Sailor business, because more or less, I don't give a shit about anything when I sleeping. Just me. And if anyone doesn't like it, then they can suck my...well, if I was a male, then I guess that they would have to, but I think that they could just go and eat me. What, that kind of language isn't the way Sailor Moon should talk to her fans. Well shit, I don't think that anyone's going to be coming back to me the way they have after seeing this shit. But I can't help it. It's just the way I am. I can't change that, and I can't change anything about me. Why should I even try? I like being myslef. So quit whining about how I should be a moral hero as well as a physical hero. It's not gonna happen. -------------------------------------------------------- TIME OF ENTRY: July 25th, 11:00 PM Dear Diary, Ami introduced me to the internet today. On it was various rumors about us and the world issues. But what really caught my eye was how many web sites enjoy us in different countries doing what we do here in Japan. Very good for them. But I run into some that have problems with some guy in Ohio in the USA who has a bad vibe with them. They keep bitching and whining and crying about that site, and that, to be honest, made me just about SICK to my stomach. How can anyone do that to anybody. Someone works their ass off to get a site up and running about us, and someone else, thinking that their site is the Sailor Moon site from God or something, tells his server to down it. TWICE!! What the fuck is that all about? Who gives a shit what kind of language he uses on the site? Also, who cares what some critics think about some of the fanfiction that I see on some of the sites? Hell, I've seen everywhere from sites that will put anything on the net to people who don't have any other life than to critisize every other fic, and to douche it for some reason. Best SM Fics on the internet, huh? I'll be the judge of that. Granted, some are good, but others suck ass, but who is it to judge but your own concious. I'll be the judge. I don't need any other people to judge what is good and not good but myself. And why should I care if someone uses an English translation of the names we use, as well. I don't care, and I don't know why many different people make that a factor of whether a fic is good or not. But then again, I am Sailor Moon, and it's just the way I am. And what is this shit about other people saying that lesbians and gays are not being appreciated in America. I don't get why some dubbing company will do something like that to a show based on us. We're superheros, not moral teachers. I think I said that yesterday. CWi, do what you must, but remember, Japan is actually treating quote-on-quote "faggots" as being normal, unlike in the USA. I would be glad to see a same-sex marrage. Violence? It's just in the job, you fucking IDIOTS. You're trying to say to a Japanese person that violent TV in the US is the cause of two boys in trench-coats and some guns shooting down a school in a once small city? Man, what a JOKE. Are we the reason for Columbine? We never told them to go out and shoot up at school. When is this BLAME GAMN gonna end? From MY POV, no time soon. -------------------------------------------------------- TIME OF ENTRY: July 26th, 10:30 PM Dear Diary, Our show is taking shape here in Japan, and it seems that finally, we are getting reconigion. But wasn't I getting reconigion before, when a comic was coming out? Remember that site I was bitching about yesterday? Well, a quote from him had something about our show being dropped in the US being a GOOD thing. Well, let me agree. The way those people think that the goverment should be the babysitters, it would be a blessing, and I hear that it could happen. FUCK THAT!!!! Anyway, I was saving the world from crime yet again, and then millions more wanted to have my autograph. I don't mind that. I'm thankful for everything that has happened for me. But I never asked for this, and I can't even take a shower or bath without someone IN the tub WITH me wanting an autograph now. And I hear it's like that with every other Sailor, and the sites I talked about yesterday. Everyone wants to be a part of the Sailor "phenominon", I guess. Are we more popular than Pokemon? HELL NO, although I would like to be. Sometimes, a plane with my picture on it would be pretty cool, if it hasn't happened already. Plane in the sky, saying, "Sailor Moon is the SHIT!!" That would be cool. Well, these past three days have been hectic on my life. These entries. Is this the way I am? Is this really what my life will be like? What I, Serena (or Usagi, whichever you prefer, diary) Ts...oh, the hell with trying to spell my last name (I never could in the FIRST place). You know, I can really be myself in this diary. I hope that this freedom of sppech never change. I may love you more than Mamoru-slash- Darien....MAYBE. Well, another day gone, and I bet the next days ahead will be just like this one. I don't know, it's just the way I am. END OF KNOWN ENTRIES. ____________________________________________________________________ My e-mail is darkpowrjd@aol.com. I know this is not as good as I think it is, but it's the way I am ^_^.