Author's Notes: This is mainly Michiru's thoughts on Haruka.  Thank you all 
for reading my poems and short fics.  Huge thanks to those people who 
emailed me and a special thanks to Himemiya Anshii.

     'I try,
     but I can't seem to 
     get myself to think of 
     anything, 
     but you 
     Your breath on my face,
     your warm gentle kiss 
     I taste 
     the truth
     I taste the truth 
     You know what I came here for 

     So, 
     I won't ask for more 
 
     I wanna be with you 
     If only for a night 
     to be the one who's in your arms, 
     who holds you tight 
     I wanna be with you 
     There's nothing more to say 
     There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way' 
 
Excerpt from "I Wanna Be With You" by Mandy Moore

Longing for the Wind 
By Ducky
Email: jessiegb@aol.com

     I see you out of the corner of my eye.  You know that I'm watching you, 
but you pretend not to see.  I can see the torment in your eyes, the inner 
battle in your mind with every glance that I send to you.  I know you can 
feel 
it, for why would you be fighting so hard?

     Haruka . . .

     Why do you want to live up you your name?

     You don't have to.  

     I've watched you for so long, and even though I don't know the details 
of 
your past, you have revealed yourself in every movement that you've made.  
Through every gesture, every gleam in your eyes, every word I saw more of 
the person inside.  I know that you've been alone.  I know the pain you've 
been through.  I know the pain that you go through now.  

     I know that the pain isn't necessary.

     I wish that you would just stop running now.  It would save us both so 
much of this pain.  But I know that it is not in your nature.  It has always 
been 
in your nature to fight. It's the only way you've survived in your life.  
It's the only 
thing you've known.  

     But even the wind finds some calm.  

     I know that you are afraid, and that it is rare that you are.  I 
understand.  I 
was afraid too, but now, I'm even more afraid.  Because if you do not take up 
your destiny, the chances of my death will heighten.  I am not that strong.  
I 
cannot survive without you, in my life or in this mission.  There will be a 
battle 
that I will not win.  

     Would you know?

     Would you care?

     Sometimes your fa硤e is so clean, so cold, and so thorough, that I 
doubt 
in myself.  I ask myself if I am wrong, if you really aren't acting.  But 
another 
look banishes these thoughts and I know what you truly feel.  A constant 
reminder of why I fight, who I fight for. 

     You knew when Elza introduced me that I had more intentioned than just 
wanting you to pose for me.  You knew.  You pulled off being nonchalant, but 
you didn't fool me.  I saw the recognition in your eyes, the blast of shock 
inside of you.  I could read you so well. I still can. 

     We argued on the cruise ship.  But I could see the fear through the 
anger.  
I could see so much and I wondered if having you was worth putting you 
through this.  Being a Senshi isn't exactly an ideal life . . . but I need 
you.  
So much.
    
     I will keep on trying.  You will give in.  You must take up your 
destiny. Not 
for my sake, but for your own.  You will be saving your own life if you will. 
 We 
can save the world, you and I.

     This is a battle you cannot win, Tenou Haruka.  It is a battle you will 
lose 
if you continue to fight, if you do not surrender.

     Surrender to your destiny.

     Surrender to me.


End