Tsukino Usagi is Dead Dremdancer Tsukino Usagi is dead. It's a real shame too. I'll miss her. The witch. She is dead. Dead dead dead dead dead! I know. I killed her. Just as she killed me. For years on end I was a prisoner in her mind. I wasn't able to move or talk. Do you know how alful that is? I had to wait over a thousand years in the void before I could get a new body. And when, finally, I have a chance to live again, what does she do? She locks me out! Oh, she was tricky. For every comment that I would make, every sugestion, she would come up with one that was the exact oppisite. Usagi denied me my life! I hated her. I didn't at first. No, not at first. Not when she was still a child, and I could still influence her. I was so sure then, so happy that things would work out. She was so cute then! But she hardened her mind to me. She turned away from my plight and thought only of herself. Oh she was still the sweet, carefree bunny that everyone thought her to be. Outwardly. I knew her though. I knew her like no other did. Not even her precious 'Mamo-chan' knew her like I did. Every thought that she had was mine to share. Every idea, every emotion. I knew her inside and out. Oh, my poor Mother had searched long and hard to find one that so resembled me, in thought and in looks. One who looked like me, talked like me. But who wasn't, and never could be, _me_. Usagi was even very intellegent. She really was! But when I tried to help her, she got resentful. And, like the brat she was, she tried to shove me back, ignoring my words of wisdom. She managed to block me out completly after a time. But even after that, she continued to spite me. Mother would never given me a host as clusmy and foolish as Usagi set herself out to be. To spite me. She did it, all of it, to spite me! She forgot things, fell and tripped at just the right times to humilate me, and constantly crammed food into her mouth. All of this, to spite me. Oh, I hated her then. But that wasn't the worst of it. The worst part of it was that I lost the threshold that I had on her mind. I could no longer influence her. And if that wasn't bad enough, she forgot about me! Tsukino Usagi forgot that I waited there, caught in her mind. After eons in the void, I return only to be shoved back, to be pushed off into some dark corner where none can hear my cries? I don't think so. I tried. I tried so hard to free myself. It was all to naught, however, until a certain someone once more appeared in my life. Her down fall came. It came as surely as the full moon. When Mother's advisor first crossed into the Tsukino's home, I knew things were going to change. And change it it! It all changed! I was rather annoyed with Luna. Even though she could reconise the energy running through Usagi as Lunar, she could not see _me_. I wasn't too thrilled with her at that point. But it doesn't matter now. Tsukino Usagi is dead. She began to rot away, decaying from the inside out, the first time she ever uttered the words, "Moon Prism Power, Make Up!". And every time that she transformed, I ate away at the bonds that shoved me back. Even better was that, subconsciously, she asked me for help. And I gave it to her. I told her what to say, what to do. And most of the time, she got it right. Usagi is dead. The others returned in time. Mercury, Mars, Jupiter. But it was Venus' timely arrival that marked my first great victory. Because right after that, my beloved Endymon was stabbed with an ice crystal from Zoicyte. And Usagi, still reeling from the blow that her arch enemy in the wonderful world of Arcades, was none other then her own beloved, Tuxedo Kamen. I knew that already as a matter of course. All she could see was that her love was dying. What an end, bleeding to death in an alternate dimension. She simply gave up. Stood there in shock, tears running down her face. So I took over. I TOOK OVER! It felt wondrous. You can't describe how it felt, to want to move your arm, and have it move. To stretch, to laugh or to cry. I loved it. Every moment of it. But the witch intruded on my time. She influenced me as I so often had her. And I couldn't hold it. So long in the void had weakened me. Cruelly, she shoved me back again, into the depths. Into the darkness. She is dead. I gave her what she deserved. Then, what a laugh! She asked for my help again! She had me defeat Beryl for her. Which I did. Then the little witch made a wish. A stupid little wish. ?Just to be an ordinary girl' And she got it too. What about my wishes? My hopes? My dreams? Usagi got everything. That's one of the reasons why I had to kill her. So many times after that. She pull me to the forefront to deal with the monster of the week, and then push me back into the recesses of her mind. The witch. I could deal with Black Lady. I even thought Demando was a hottie, even if he did need a hair cut. I'd never leave my Endymon, though. Ever. I could handle it when Saturn elected to destroy the world. Sure. Just get a Messiah of Love to pull the Messiah of Death back on the right track. Every things FINE. Okay? Everything's just dandy. Peachy, even. Sure. Even with Nerphina. Okay. But while she was off looking at daisies and forgetting everything, I was working as hard as I could to get her moving again. In the end, Jupiter had to do that for me. Fine. That's great. I could do that. I sure could! Yup! But when it was Galaxia's turn, well, that was just the last dang straw. Sailor Moon Eternal was so much ME. So much Moon Power flooding through her system, she involuntarily gave up control a thousand times over, just to pull back right before I could become myself again. She was always a pig. So greedy. So I killed her! After Galexia, all was quiet. Not a new monster for months. Then Usagi got it into her mind to start experimenting with the Silver Crystal. Not smart. I took control. And I have been in control since. And I killed her. I killed Tsukino Usagi by shoving her like she did me for years. Now _she_ watches, helpless against anything I might do. I am Serenity. The Moon Princess and soon to be Queen of Crystal Tokyo. The senshi realize this. Now I am Serenity to them as well. Usagi is dead. Her parents have noted the change, but like all the others, they thought, they _know_ it was for the better. Soon I will raise Crystal Tokyo from it's sleep. I am Serenity, and I can do anything. It's kind of funny though. Sometimes, I think that I can still hear Usagi scream at me. To leave her and her _Mamo-chan_ alone. I haven't learned to block her out yet. Not like she had me. But I have millennia to practice, right? I killed Usagi. I killed her as she killed me. I smile to myself, thinking that. I rub my arms. I need a sweater. It's starting to get cold. Author's Notes Whoo-boy! It's done! I'm amazed! Note, that although I really do love Serena/Usagi and use them/her in all of my fics as main characters, I just had to write this. Flame me if you like. But how would you feel if you were trapped for ages inside of someone's mind? I'd go insane. Funny, that's what Serenity did. In this fic at least. Most of my stories are/will be lighter. This one came to me as I was plotting out Angel Flight. (Or perhaps it should be called Angel Fall?). If you don't hear about Angel for weeks and months and days, don't worry. I have other stuff that would be cool to get posted. Oh, all standard disclaimers apply. No one sue, okay? Oh, yeah. Tsukino Usagi is Dead is copyrighted by Dremdancer March 4th, 1998. No one steal it either, okay? Oh, did you get that last bit? If not, reread and look _very_ closely at those last few lines. Kinda a bit of foreshadowing, don't ya think? Also. Stop reading this right now! Go read Crystal Heart-sama's stories! She is the Goddess of Sailor Moon romance! Sere and Dare in particular. Also Read Lianne-sama and Razzz-sama! Go now! And beg them, no, plead them to get their fics finished! Please! Dremdancer dremdancer@hotmail.com Sammy: I'll take you to where my dad is! Darien: Okay. Serena: SAMMY!!! Sammy: Stay here, it's too dangerous. It's kinda a guy thing. Serena: A _guy thing_?!?--====================987654321_0==_ Content-Type: text/plain; charset="us-ascii"